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That night the two men sat before the fire and watched the flames and

listened to the wind roaring in the pines. On his side of the dead line

Bud rocked his hard-muscled, big body back and forth, cradling Lovin

Child asleep in his arms. In one tender palm he nested Lovin Child's

little bare feet, like two fat, white mice that slept together after a

day's scampering.

Bud was thinking, as he always thought nowadays, of Marie and his own

boy; yearning, tender thoughts which his clumsy man's tongue would never

attempt to speak. Before, he had thought of Marie alone, without the

baby; but he had learned much, these last four days. He knew now how

closely a baby can creep in and cling, how they can fill the days with

joy. He knew how he would miss Lovin Child when the storm cleared and

he must take him away. It did not seem right or just that he should give

him into the keeping of strangers--and yet he must until the parents

could have him back. The black depths of their grief to-night Bud

could not bring himself to contemplate. Bad enough to forecast his own

desolateness when Lovin Child was no longer romping up and down the dead

line, looking where he might find some mischief to get into. Bad enough

to know that the cabin would again be a place of silence and gloom and

futile resentments over little things, with no happy little man-child to

brighten it. He crept into his bunk that night and snuggled the baby up

in his arms, a miserable man with no courage left in him for the future.

But the next day it was still storming, and colder than ever. No one

would expect him to take a baby out in such weather. So Bud whistled and

romped with Lovin Child, and would not worry about what must happen when

the storm was past.

All day Cash brooded before the fire, bundled in his mackinaw and

sweater. He did not even smoke, and though he seemed to feel the cold

abnormally, he did not bring in any wood except in the morning, but let

Bud keep the fireplace going with his own generous supply. He did not

eat any dinner, and at supper time he went to bed with all the clothes

he possessed piled on top of him. By all these signs, Bud knew that Cash

had a bad cold.

Bud did not think much about it at first--being of the sturdy type that

makes light of a cold. But when Cash began to cough with that hoarse,

racking sound that tells the tale of laboring lungs, Bud began to feel

guiltily that he ought to do something about it.

He hushed Lovin Child's romping, that night, and would not let him ride

a bronk at bedtime. When he was asleep, Bud laid him down and went over

to the supply cupboard, which he had been obliged to rearrange with

everything except tin cans placed on shelves too high for a two-year-old

to reach even when he stood on his tiptoes and grunted. He hunted for

the small bottle of turpentine, found it and mixed some with melted

bacon grease, and went over to Cash's bunk, hesitating before he crossed

the dead line, but crossing nevertheless.