Mr Pancks crowned his mysteries by making himself acquainted with Tip
in some unknown manner, and taking a Sunday saunter into the College
on that gentleman's arm. Throughout he never took any notice of Little
Dorrit, save once or twice when he happened to come close to her and
there was no one very near; on which occasions, he said in passing,
with a friendly look and a puff of encouragement, 'Pancks the
gipsy--fortune-telling.'
Little Dorrit worked and strove as usual, wondering at all this, but
keeping her wonder, as she had from her earliest years kept many heavier
loads, in her own breast. A change had stolen, and was stealing yet,
over the patient heart. Every day found her something more retiring
than the day before. To pass in and out of the prison unnoticed, and
elsewhere to be overlooked and forgotten, were, for herself, her chief
desires. To her own room too, strangely assorted room for her delicate youth
and character, she was glad to retreat as often as she could without
desertion of any duty. There were afternoon times when she was
unemployed, when visitors dropped in to play a hand at cards with her
father, when she could be spared and was better away. Then she would
flit along the yard, climb the scores of stairs that led to her room,
and take her seat at the window. Many combinations did those spikes
upon the wall assume, many light shapes did the strong iron weave itself
into, many golden touches fell upon the rust, while Little Dorrit sat
there musing. New zig-zags sprung into the cruel pattern sometimes, when
she saw it through a burst of tears; but beautified or hardened still,
always over it and under it and through it, she was fain to look in her
solitude, seeing everything with that ineffaceable brand.
A garret, and a Marshalsea garret without compromise, was Little
Dorrit's room. Beautifully kept, it was ugly in itself, and had little
but cleanliness and air to set it off; for what embellishment she had
ever been able to buy, had gone to her father's room. Howbeit, for this
poor place she showed an increasing love; and to sit in it alone became
her favourite rest. Insomuch, that on a certain afternoon during the Pancks mysteries, when
she was seated at her window, and heard Maggy's well-known step coming
up the stairs, she was very much disturbed by the apprehension of being
summoned away. As Maggy's step came higher up and nearer, she trembled
and faltered; and it was as much as she could do to speak, when Maggy at
length appeared. 'Please, Little Mother,' said Maggy, panting for breath, 'you must come
down and see him. He's here.' 'Who, Maggy?'