'I came because I promised.'
'But you did not promise to speak;--did you?'
'What would you have me say?'
'Ah what! Am I to be so weak as to tell you now what I would have you say? Suppose you were to say, "I am a gentleman, and a man of my word, and I repent me of my intended perfidy," do you not think you might get your release that way? Might it not be possible that I should reply that as your heart was gone from me, your hand might go after it;--that I scorned to be the wife of a man who did not want me?' As she asked this she gradually raised her voice, and half lifted herself in her seat, stretching herself towards him.
'You might indeed,' he replied, not well knowing what to say.
'But I should not. I at least will be true. I should take you, Paul,-- still take you; with a confidence that I should yet win you to me by my devotion. I have still some kindness of feeling towards you,--none to that woman who is I suppose younger than I, and gentler, and a maid.' She still looked as though she expected a reply, but there was nothing to be said in answer to this. 'Now that you are going to leave me, Paul, is there any advice you can give me, as to what I shall do next? I have given up every friend in the world for you. I have no home. Mrs Pipkin's room here is more my home than any other spot on the earth. I have all the world to choose from, but no reason whatever for a choice. I have my property. What shall I do with it, Paul? If I could die and be no more heard of, you should be welcome to it.' There was no answer possible to all this. The questions were asked because there was no answer possible. 'You might at any rate advise me. Paul, you are in some degree responsible,--are you not,--for my loneliness?'
'I am. But you know that I cannot answer your questions.'
'You cannot wonder that I should be somewhat in doubt as to my future life. As far as I can see, I had better remain here. I do good at any rate to Mrs Pipkin. She went into hysterics yesterday when I spoke of leaving her. That woman, Paul, would starve in our country, and I shall be desolate in this.' Then she paused, and there was absolute silence for a minute. 'You thought my letter very short; did you not?'