Ahmann’s eyes widened. ‘Inevera.’
She felt her heart skip at his recognition. He had seen her face but once, and been dulled by pain at the time, but even after all these years he remembered. The terror left his eyes, replaced by a smoulder that seemed to burn through her. Suddenly it became harder to draw a full breath in the perfumed air.
‘The night we met,’ Inevera said, ‘I finished carving my first alagai hora. It was fate; Everam’s will, like my name. I needed a question to ask. A test to see if the dice held the power of fate. But what question? Then I remembered the boy I had met that day, with the bold eyes and brash manner, and as I shook the demon dice, I asked, “Will I ever see Ahmann Jardir again?” ’
‘And from that night on, I knew I would find you in the Maze after your first alagai’sharak, and more, that I would marry you and bear you many children.’
Inevera had rehearsed the tale so many times that she spoke with utter conviction, despite the lies and half-truths. But in the end, her words did not matter. Their union had been destined by Everam. They were meant for each other. That was why he was looking at her that way, making her face heat and her dama’ting calm slip. She was caught in his wind.
She almost broke and told him everything. Looking into his honest eyes, she had little fear this one would grow into a monster. He was chosen by Everam. If any could shoulder the burden, it was he.
But how does one tell someone he might be the Deliverer? It was too much, and this night was too important. It must be perfect.
She shrugged her shoulders, and her white robes fell away with a sigh of silk. She was clad only in her bido now, finger cymbals tucked into its weave. She rubbed her thumbs over the smooth tips of her index fingers, limbering them. She would step into him, allowing him to caress her until his breathing laboured; then she would use sharusahk to break the line of power in his leg, a whisper touch that would send him stumbling back onto the pillows. Then she would slide her fingers into the cymbals and beat a rhythm to set his loins ablaze.
And then she would dance, slowly unweaving her bido for the last time. The dance, like the speech, had been rehearsed so carefully every move was a part of her.
When Ahmann was firmly under her control, she would fall into the pillows and ruin him so utterly that every woman to come after her would prove a disappointment.
But he was still staring at her, and the smoulder in his eyes was brightening into fire. She felt its heat, and flushed. The incense hung heavy in the air as she tried to breathe, making her dizzy, her centre elusive. She knew she should act, but the thought came as if from outside her body.
She watched helplessly as Ahmann stripped his outer robe and went to her bare-chested, crushing her to him and running his hands over her body. He inhaled the perfume at her throat and let out a growl that seemed to resonate between her legs. He held her close to him, kissing her and stealing her breath, her centre. She felt the stiffness in his pantaloons, and knew all her plans might be undone if she allowed him to take her like a common jiwah, but somehow he had broken the lines of power in her limbs, and she was helpless as he threw her down to the pillows.
He was on her in an instant, hands and mouth roaming her body, kissing here and biting there, squeezing so hard in places that she squirmed. His hands found their way between her legs, caressing the silk of her bido weave. Inevera groaned, grinding into him further.
I must take control, she thought desperately, or he will ever have of me as he will.
She twisted and rolled atop him, undoing the laces at his waist and untying his bido. There was oil in the chamber, and she wet her hands in it, taking him in the first of the seven strokes.
Ahmann grunted and fell back, caught in ecstasy, and Inevera began to breathe again.
I have him now.
But she didn’t have him for long. The strokes were designed to take a man’s arousal to a steady pace and hold him there, but Ahmann only became more incensed. She altered her strokes, but still they were not enough for him. He took her in his powerful arms and reached down, sticking fingers into her bido and attempting to yank it off.
But the nie’dama’ting bido wrap was made of stronger stuff, and thwarted him. He grunted and yanked harder. Inevera gasped.
Ahmann growled, fumbling at the weave for its ends and failing to find them. He locked his fingers into the weave and tried to snap the silk, but it resisted even when he ground his teeth in strain.
‘You will not get through until I unweave it,’ Inevera told him, pushing him back into the pillows. ‘I will dance …’
‘Later.’ Ahmann grabbed her arm hard, pulling her back down with him. He reached into his pantaloons and pulled forth a knife.
‘You cannot …’ she gasped.
‘I am your husband,’ he said. ‘I have been dreaming of you for years, and now you are in my arms. It is inevera, and I will not wait a moment longer.’
She could have stopped him. Could have numbed his knife arm, or twisted away, but she hesitated. In an instant the silk was cut and he was inside her.
None of Inevera’s lessons had prepared her for the rush of pleasure as her husband took her. She might have been overwhelmed, but for the countless hours spent practising the pillow dance. Her hips moved of their own accord, twisting as her thighs gripped him, pulling him into her more forcefully at times, and holding him at bay at others.
But Ahmann was no meek eunuch, and she found the practised poses harder to hold when her own senses were aflame. Ahmann made up for his lack of experience in passion, and they wrestled in the pillows for control. Inevera felt her own climax building and against all wisdom let it take hold, racking her from skin to centre. She howled, and Ahmann began to thrust with abandon. She tightened, her nails digging into his hard buttocks until he roared and they both collapsed panting and spent.
They slept for a time, and then Inevera woke to Ahmann caressing her again. His breathing was deep and even.
Even in his sleep, my wolf paws me, she thought with pride, and wriggled her hips back into him, feeling his night stiffness.
But Ahmann was not quite as asleep as he seemed. He pushed her onto her stomach and mounted her like a dog mounts a bitch, grunting softly as he ground into her.
When you control a man’s cock, you control him, Qeva had taught, but Inevera felt no control here. In some ways, she wanted none. How was this possible?
Because he’s not just a man, a voice within her said. He’s the Deliverer.
She groaned into the pillows.
You have the Deliverer’s cock in you.
Her groans became a cry. She thrust back at him hard, and soon he was spent as well, and fell into a deep sleep.
But Inevera did not sleep again. She lay awake through the rest of the night.
The dice were tricky, giving only half-truths at times.
She had known she was to make him a man, but she hadn’t expected him to make her a woman as well.
10
Kenevah’s Concern
313–317 AR
‘My son promised me he would one day give me a palace,’ Kajivah exulted as she danced through Ahmann’s kai’Sharum quarters in the Kaji palace. It was not even truly Ahmann’s, much less Kajivah’s, but the woman did not seem to care – nor did Ahmann’s three younger sisters, Imisandre, Hoshvah, and Hanya, who ran shrieking about the rooms.
‘He promised me, and though Everam knows we’d never had much good fortune, I believed him. They said I was cursed for having three girls after him, but you know what I say?’