Nicole shrugged. "I guess."
"I also think you should finish what you started with Ethan. It's the only way. You were a virgin and you'll be forever traumatized if you don't. Next time, just do it all the way."
"I'm never doing that again. Especially with him."
"You have."
"You have to go and do it with him or you'll be scarred for life."
"I won't, Cleo. I can't. There's too much to think about right now." She was really getting frustrated. "You don't know the whole story behind it all and I really don't want to go into it. He used me."
"So what! Use him back. Use him to get over this fear of sex because if you don't no matter what all you'll think about is him. You'll never get him out of your system. Men use women for sex all the time. This is the nineties girl, women can use men all we want and not feel an ounce of guilt."
"It's too complicated."
"Only if you make it, Nicole. He's there all alone in that beautiful house just waiting for you to knock on the door at night. Don't let him speak or reason, because when he does he'll only make you nervous. Take control of the situation and use him. If it hurts don't make him stop, just tell him what feels right and what doesn't. Men like it when a woman lets them know how to make love to them."
"It sounds easy, but I know it's not."
"It's only as hard as you make it out to be. You can easily get to him. He's waiting for you. Once it's over with, all you have to do is get up and leave."
"Just leave?"
"Yes. Don't even tell him you're going. Wait until he's asleep and leave."
Nicole only stared into space trying to find out where her courage would be just to show her face up in front of him.
"The perfect time would be tomorrow night. That's when I will be off both jobs and can come to the hospital while you're at his place," Cleo hinted.
Her stomach felt like her muscles were tying in knots at the thought of seeing him again. "I don't know if I can get over the fact that he used me, Cleo."
"That doesn't matter. You're going there to get what you want. That's what's wrong with women know, you let your personal feelings get in the way of enjoyment. You'll get no pleasure out of life if you allow that to happen, Nicole. Like I said, use him. Use him until you get tired."