Suddenly, Janie feels like she’s wasted so much time these last few days, when she could have been here for Henry.
She tells him how hard it’s been, discovering all this stuff in the past few days, and she cries a little.
She talks deep into the night.
Talks until she has emptied out her soul.
Henry’s face doesn’t change. He doesn’t move at all.
When Janie is too tired to think or say another word, she drifts off, all curled up in the chair.
All is quiet.
4:51 a.m.
She dreams.
Janie’s in her bedroom, sitting up in bed, disoriented. Her tongue feels dry, parched, and she wets her lips. Her tongue leaves a film on her lips—it feels gritty like sand. When Janie reaches up to wipe away the grittiness, her lips give way. Her teeth collapse and tiny pieces break off in her mouth. Crumbling. The sharp, stumpy remains cut her tongue.
Horrified, Janie spits into her hands. Bits and pieces of the crumbled teeth come out. Janie keeps spitting and more and more tooth shards pile up in her hands. Frantically, Janie looks up, unsure what to do. When she moves her eyes, everything is blurry. Filmy. Like she’s trying to see in a steamed-up mirror or a waterfall. She dumps her teeth on the bed, forgotten, and wipes at her eyes, trying to clear them, trying to see. But she’s blind. “I’m isolating,” she cries. “I’m not supposed to go blind! No! I’m not ready!” She claws at her eyes, and then realizes that she has vertical slits—holes in her face—next to each eye. Something pokes out from each.
Janie takes hold of whatever it is and pulls.
Slivers of soap slide out from the slits.
Janie’s eyes itch and burn like crazy. She swipes at them and pulls more pieces of soap out, but the pieces seem to reproduce. As she pulls out soap slivers, she runs her tongue over the jagged remains of her teeth, tasting blood. “No!” she cries.
Finally, she pulls out the last of the soap and she can see again. She looks up, relieved.
And there.
Sitting in his chair. Watching Janie with a look of calm on his face.
Henry.
Janie stares at him.
And it dawns on her, after a minute, what she should do.
“Help me. Help me, Henry.”
Henry looks surprised. Obediently he stands and approaches Janie.
Janie shows him her handful of teeth. “You can help me change it, you know. Is it okay if I put these back in?”
Henry’s eyes speak. They are filled with encouragement. He nods.
Janie smiles a brickle smile. Nods back. Pushes the teeth back into place as if they are Lego pieces. When she is done, she pats the bed and smiles.
Henry sits. “You’re just like me,” he says.
“Yes.”
“I heard you—all the things you told me. I’m sorry.”
“I’m glad. Glad you heard, I mean. You don’t have to be sorry. You didn’t know.” She stares at Henry’s empty chair.
He turns to her. “I think . . . I think I would have liked to know you.”
Janie chokes back a sob.
He takes her hand. “I miss her. Dottie. Is she good to you? A good mother?”
She stares at his hand in hers for a long minute. Not sure what to say about that. Finally she shrugs. Says, “I turned out all right.” Looks up at Henry’s face.
Smiles a crooked smile through her tears.
6:10 a.m.
The door to Henry’s ICU room opens.
It’s the first shift nurse, checking vitals. Janie startles awake, sits up and rubs her eyes.
“Don’t mind me,” the nurse says, checking Henry’s pulse. “You look like you could use some more sleep.”
Janie smiles and stretches. She glances at Henry, remembering. It was weird, having someone in her dream for the first time.
Then she sucks in a breath, surprised, and hops to her feet to get a better look. “He’s—” she says as the nurse turns to go. “He looks different. His face.”
The nurse glances at Henry and checks her chart. “Does he?” She smiles, distracted. “Better, I hope.”
But Janie’s staring at Henry.
His posture has relaxed, his face is no longer strained, his hands are unclenched and resting gently now by his face. He looks peaceful. The agony is gone.
The nurse shrugs and leaves. Janie keeps staring, thrilled to see him looking better, hoping he’s no longer experiencing the horrible nightmares. Wonders briefly if there’s a chance he could pull out of it.
Knows there’s a better chance he’ll finally get to die.
6:21 a.m.
Janie, with a plan, goes into Henry’s private bathroom and closes the door. She knows she doesn’t have much strength, but closing the door is a no-brainer if she gets stuck.
She opens the door and gets sucked in. Slowly. Gently. No static, no bright walls slamming into her.
It’s just a dark gymnasium, just one patch of light streaming though the high window.
The hallway’s rooms are empty, now.
Miss Stubin, Henry, both gone.
All that remains is Henry’s chair.
And on the chair, a note.
My dear Janie,
Much has been demanded of you. And yet, you remain stronger than you think.
Until we meet again,
Martha
P.S. Henry wishes you to consider Morton’s Fork.
6:28 a.m.
Janie closes the door on her last dream.
When she is able, she escapes the dream again and trudges through the hallways and outside to the bus stop, takes the bus home, and falls into bed.