She was aware, too, of a curious loneliness within her, and dimly
understood that it was the companion of a lifetime she was
missing--her conscience. Where was it? Had it gone? Had it died?
Were the little, inexplicable flashes of fear proof of its
disintegration? Or its immortal vitality?
Dead, dormant, departed, she knew not which, she was dully aware of
its loss--dimly and childishly troubled that she could remember
nothing to be sorry for. And there was so much.
Men in his profession who knew him began to look askance at him and
her, amused or otherwise, according to their individual characters.
That Cecile White went about more or less with the sculptor Drene
was a nine days' gossip among circles familiar to them both, and was
forgotten--as are all wonders--in nine days.
Some of his acquaintances recalled what had been supposed to be the
tragedy of his life, mentioning a woman's name, and a man's--Drene's
closest friend. But gossip does not last long among the busy--not
that the busy are incapable of gossip, but they finish with it
quickly, having other matters to think about.
Even Quair, after recovering from his wonder that his own
condescending advances had been ignored, bestowed his fatuously
inflammable attentions elsewhere.
He had been inclined to complain one day in the studio, when he and
Guilder visited Drene professionally; and Guilder looked at his
dapper confrere in surprise and slight disgust; and Drene, at first
bored, grew irritable.
"What are you talking about?" he said sharply.
"I'm talking about Cecile White," continued Quair, looking rather
oddly at the sculptor out of his slightly prominent eyes. "I didn't
suppose you could be interested in any woman--not that I mind your
interfering with any little affair between Cecile and me--"
"There wasn't any."
"I beg your pardon, Drene--"
"There wasn't any!" repeated Drene, with curt contempt. "Don't talk
about her, anyway."
"You mean I'm not to talk about a common artist's model--"
"Not that way."
"Oh. Is she yours?"
"She isn't anybody's, I fancy. Therefore, let her alone, or I'll
throw you out of doors."
Quair said to Guilder after they had departed: "Fancy old Drene playing about with that girl on a strictly pious
basis! He's doubtless dub enough to waste his time. But what's in it
for her?"
"Perhaps a little unaccustomed masculine decency."
"Everybody is decent enough to her as far as I know."
"Including yourself?"
"Certainly, including myself," retorted Quair, adding naively:
"Besides, I knew any attempt at philandering would be time wasted."