"I may go, then?" she said.
He could not in reason forbid her. He thought of her long service.
"Of course, dearest, go. But surely you aren't going to-night?"
"If you'll let me. I shall only take a bag. And the sooner I go, the sooner I shall be back."
"In two days?"
"In two days."
"And where will you stay?"
"At Shepheard's."
"I don't like your going alone. I wish you had a maid--"
"You've guessed it!" she said.
"What?"
He looked almost startled.
"I didn't like to tell you, but I will now. May I have a maid again?"
"That's what you want, to get a maid?"
She smiled, and looked almost shy.
"I've done splendidly without one. But still--"
From that moment he only pressed, begged her to go.
Isaacson returned to find it was all settled. When he was told, he only said, "I think it wonderful that Mrs. Armine has managed without a maid for so long."
Soon afterwards he went to his room, and was shut in there for a considerable time. He said he had letters to write. Yet he sent no letters to the post that day.
Meanwhile Mrs. Armine, with the assistance of one of the Nubians, was packing a few things. Now that at last she was going to do something definite, she marvelled that she had been able to endure her life of waiting so long. This movement and planning in connection with a journey roused in her a secret excitement that was feverish.
"If only I were going away for ever!" she thought, as she went about her dressing-room. "If only I were never to see my husband and Isaacson again!"
And with that thought she paused and stood still.
Suppose it really were so! Suppose she found Baroudi, told him all that had happened, told him her misery, begged him to let her remain with him! He might be kind. He might for once yield to her wishes instead of imposing upon her his commands. There would be a great scandal; but what of that? She did not care any longer for public opinion. She only wanted now to escape from all that reminded her of Europe, of her former life, to sink into the bosom of the East and be lost in it for ever. The far future was nothing to her. All she thought about, all she cared for, was to escape at once and have the one thing she wanted, the thing for which the whole of her clamoured unceasingly. She was obsessed by the one idea, as only the woman of her temperament, arrived at her critical age, can be obsessed.