And it suddenly struck her, like blinding light on snow.
She knew the source of Antillus's obstinate rage.
She retreated from the next attack. "It isn't about Gaius at all," she breathed aloud. "It's about me. And it's about Maximus."
Raucus flung another burst of flame at her, hot but badly aimed. She was able to defend against it with more snow raised about her.
"You don't know what you're talking about," he snarled.
"Yes, I do," she said. "At first I thought you must have hated Tavi-but he's your friend's son, Raucus. You and Septimus knew and trusted one another. And I don't think that even after all those years, you're the kind of man to forget a friend."
"You've got no idea what you're talking about!" Raucus snarled. His sword whipped out twice more, biting away another inch of her blade each time.
Isana's voice shook with fear, and she smoothed the ground between them to ice, trying to create more space between them. "I do. Septimus did something you did. He fell in love with a freeman-with me. But he did something else you didn't dare to do. He married her."
"You think it's that simple?" Raucus demanded. He gestured once at the ground and-
- and fire blossomed within the earth itself. Isana felt the sudden rush of ice and snow melting, sublimating at once to mist as the ground warmed to the heat of a southern summer in the space of an instant.
"Crows take you," Raucus hissed, and came forward, sword raised to kill.
She couldn't fight the heat in the earth, to send ice through it to cool it again-not in time to save her life. But she could use that warmth. She reached out to all that mist and vapor and forced it down, into the warm earth-transforming it almost instantly to soupy mud that swallowed Raucus to midthigh.
And leaving her suddenly, viciously weary. She'd performed too many craftings, done swiftly and powerfully rather than with grace and efficiency, and it was taking the inevitable toll.
The High Lord let out a roar of frustration and simply flung his sword at her.
Isana's sword-what was left of it-snapped in an immediate, basic parry, one of the first Araris had taught her, and one of six that that he'd said he had time to drill into her muscle memory.
It simply wasn't fast enough.
She felt her mangled gladius brush the oncoming weapon, then a tremendous impact in her belly, and she was lying on her back in the snow.
She turned on her side, dazedly, and felt something horribly wrong. It wasn't pain, precisely. It was more like a quivering, trembling, silvery sensation that shot up and down her spine and throughout her limbs.
She looked down and saw that the High Lord's sword had sunk to its hilt in her abdomen.
Her curtain of snow had fallen. Silence had swallowed the land. From the walls, there was not a single sound, not a cry, not a single human voice.
Scarlet was spreading onto the snow around her.
She lifted her head to see Raucus just staring at her. His face had gone pale. His right hand was still lifted from his throw, fingers loosely curled.
"I don't think it was simple," Isana gasped. The words hurt to speak. "I think you were young. I think you fell in love with a freeman, Max's mother. And I think your father, your mother, whoever might have been in your life was horrified. There was a war to be fought along the Shieldwall-always a war. W-w-what would happen if the heir of Antillus didn't have the furycrafting talent he needed to fight it?"
The cold was getting through her coat. Or following her blood back up to her veins. Or she was simply bleeding to death. Regardless, Isana had little time to reach the man.
"Y-you had n-no way of knowing if M-maximus would be strongly talented. I th-think you had to set his mother aside to marry. F-for strong bl-bloodline. For alliances with Kalare and its watergrain fields."
Raucus began slogging his way out of the mud, moving toward her.
"Y-your f-father was k-killed on the Wall that year. Wh-when Crassus was born. You must have been gone most of the time after that. F-fighting." She nodded to herself. Of course he would have had to be gone. Learning how to command, proving himself to his troops. It would have taken enormous effort and dedication to do so.
"You w-were in the field when Septimus died. And when Max's mother died."
"Isana, stop," Raucus said. He pulled himself from the mud.
The cold grew deeper, but somehow less unpleasant. Isana laid her head on one outflung arm and tried to keep her eyes open. "And you knew Max suffered at Dorotea's hands. But there was nothing you could do. You couldn't acknowledge him over Crassus. You couldn't cut yourself off from Dorotea to wed his mother. You must have t-tried and been denied by Gaius." She smiled faintly. "He'd never have let you v-violate the traditional laws of legitimacy. Kalare would have raised a crowstorm over it in the Senate. And you were young. And Septimus's friend. Easier to ignore you."
"Stop talking," Raucus said.
Isana let out a small laugh. "No wonder you challenged him over Valiar Marcus. He'd not dare to deny you that acknowledgment, one that was within your rights to grant. And you'd have been too happy for an excuse to fight him if he did."
Raucus grasped the hilt of his sword.
Isana put her hand on his wrist, gripping it as hard as she could. "And then, after denying you, he acknowledges Septimus's son by a freeman. A son without furycraft to his name. And after he's already manipulated Maximus into being friends with him, to boot. You must have been so angry."
She leaned up, seeking his eyes desperately. The grey sky had begun to turn black. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that happened to you. That the Realm made your life this way. That you lost the woman you loved and were forced to keep one you hated. It's unjust, Raucus. Septimus would never have allowed it to go on.
"But he's gone. And if there's going to be a future, for your friend's son, for your sons, for the Realm, you have to set that a-anger aside."
She couldn't see anything at all by then.
"Please, Raucus," she said. She knew her voice wasn't coming out in more than a whisper. "I'm asking you to take a horrible chance. But without it, there won't be anything for any of us. Please. Help us."
There was a wrenching burst of fire in her belly. She didn't move, though. It was easier not to. She could hear footsteps somewhere.
"Aria!" Raucus screamed, his voice anguished.
Cold. And blackness.
Chapter 39~40
Chapter 39
Shuar was dying.
As they rode toward the ships, Tavi realized that the roads of the last free nation of Canea had become charnel houses. Though the majority of the Vord emerging from the tunnels had flowed toward the north and west, to assault the fortifications from their unprotected rear, thousands more had spread out to haunt the roads of the land. There, they had found easy pickings in fleeing Canim families as panic descended upon the countryside. Corpses of the Canim makers-their farmers and artisans-lay exposed to the weather, untended. Their cattle had been slaughtered beside them.