As they worked the line to shake hands with their opponents, Drew searched the crowd and saw Carolina, standing and clapping along with everyone else.
He liked seeing that smile on her face. He skated over to the boards and motioned for her to come down. She did.
“You played very well, though I wasn’t sure you were going to finish it off in regulation.”
“Neither did I. Will you stay and wait for me?”
She looked uncertain. “I have some work to do.”
“Did you eat?”
“Well, no.”
He shook his head, then smiled at her. “Have dinner with me.”
“I suppose I could.”
“Great. I won’t be long. Just wait right here.”
“Okay.”
He stayed long enough to sign a few autographs for some of the fans, then headed to the locker room to take a shower. He hurried out of there before he got stuck doing media interviews, which would likely piss off his coach, but he wasn’t in the mood tonight.
Not when he’d convinced Carolina to go out to dinner with him.
She was still waiting in her seat, her knees drawn up, her sketch pad on her lap. She hadn’t seen him, so he watched her. She was so engrossed in her work that nothing could shake her out of it.
She had her hair pulled behind her ears and she was worrying her lower lip with her teeth, which brought his attention to her mouth. It might have been eight years since that hot night in the dorm, but he could still remember the sweet innocence of her taste, how she’d flung herself wholeheartedly into sex with him.
She might have been a virgin, and she’d known nothing about sex, but she’d wanted to sleep with him, had been eager to rid herself of what she’d referred to as the unpleasant yoke of virginity.
He’d been surprised that, at twenty, she’d still been a virgin. When she was a teen she’d been a little overweight, but she’d always been beautiful, with her dark hair and stunning blue eyes. What was wrong with guys that they hadn’t leaped at the chance to be with her?
Then again, what the hell had been wrong with him that he had missed out on her the two years they’d been together in college? He’d been so wrapped up in sports and his friends and screwing every girl he’d had the chance to be with that he hadn’t noticed her. Or maybe he had noticed her, but she’d been Gray’s little sister, and you didn’t screw your best friend’s sister. That was one of the rules.
Or it had been, at least until graduation night, when he’d been plenty drunk and Carolina had been plenty brave enough to ask him to take her to bed.
He’d broken the rule. And had never regretted it.
When she finally looked up and saw him, she tucked her sketchbook into her bag and came down the stairs.
“Took you long enough,” she said, her gaze scanning his face and hair. “Did you use extra gel and a blow-dryer?”
He liked that she gave him a hard time. “Yeah. It was a rough night. Plus, I wanted to look pretty for you. Did it work?”
She held her gaze on his awhile. “I won’t need to put a bag over your head, so I guess you’ll do.”
He laughed and grasped her hand. “Come on. I must have burned a thousand calories on that game. I need a big steak.”
He led her out through the side door, where he’d already arranged to have a car.
“Ooh, a private car, huh?”
He laughed as he held the door for her and then climbed inside. “Hey, I get some perks, ya know.”
The car drove them to Sparks, one of his favorite steakhouses.
“I love the food here,” Carolina said as Drew helped her out of the car.
They were seated right away and presented with a wine list.
“Wine?” he asked.
“I shouldn’t. I have so much work to do.”
“Think how relaxed you’ll be and able to work after you have a nice meal and some wine.”
She cocked a brow. “I think you’re full of it. A full stomach and wine and all I’ll want to do is climb into bed and fall asleep.”
“Then think how productive you’ll be tomorrow after some rest.”
She laughed. “You might be right about that. I’ve been working nonstop for months.”
“You needed a night off, then. Too much work muddles the brain cells and you can’t think clearly.”
“I did get some sketches drawn during your game.”
“Yeah? Can I see them?”
He read the hesitation on her face.
“Oh. I don’t know.”
“Are they secret sketches?”
“Not really. They’re just difficult to explain.”
He gave her a look. “So, you think I’m an idiot.”
“I didn’t say that.”
He held out his hand. “Then let me see them.”
“Fine.” She dug her sketchbook out of her bag and flipped to a page, then handed it to him.
He looked at them, stunned by her talent as he reviewed the pages she’d drawn of him and some of the other players. She’d caught everything about the game and the players. The speed, the intensity in their expressions. He could feel the action and the emotion on these pages. He lifted his gaze to hers. “Wow, Carolina. These are really good. I had no idea you had talent like this.”
He saw the blush creep across her cheeks as he handed the sketchbook back to her.
“I had to do them fast. They’re just messy drawings.”
“No, they’re . . . amazing. You captured the fast pace and passion of hockey like nothing I’ve ever seen.”
“What I really wanted to do was show how you all move.”
“I’d say you did that perfectly.”
Their waiter showed up. Carolina deferred, so Drew ordered a bottle of wine for them.
“What’s your intent in doing the drawings? Obviously you’re not looking to design hockey uniforms.”
She let out a short laugh. “Uh, no. But I am thinking about sports when I design for men. How to take movement into consideration. And comfort. Men don’t like to feel restricted or weighed down in clothing. You want to feel comfortable, even in”—she looked around and leaned forward—“underwear.”
“So you’re going to create a line of men’s underwear, too?”
“Yes.” Her lips tipped upward at the corners. “How do you feel about modeling underwear?”
He shrugged. “I feel fine about it, but how do you know I’ve got the goods to do it? Maybe you want to use some dude who does that for a living.”
“I suppose you have a point. I’d have to . . . see your body again.”
He smiled. “Now we’re getting somewhere.”
She rolled her eyes. “Look. You’re going to have to be a professional about this if we’re going to work together.”
“Hey, I can get n**ed and not think about ha**ng s*x with you. Maybe.”
“Can you?”
“I’m not twelve, babe.”
“Or twenty-two, drunk, and unable to remember my name?”
He leveled a not-quite-happy look at her. “I knew exactly who I was sleeping with that night.”
“Maybe you did. It was the day after you forgot who I was.”
“Yeah, I screwed up big-time that night, and the day after. I could give you a lifetime of I’m sorry’s, but that can’t change what happened or the fact I treated you like shit afterward. But I’ll still say it, as many times as you need to hear it—I’m sorry, Carolina.”
FOUR
THEIR WAITER BROUGHT THE WINE, AND TOOK THEIR food order, so Carolina didn’t have time to respond to Drew’s apology. Probably a good thing, since she had no idea what to say to him.
She’d waited years for that apology, had played over and over in her head what she’d say to him if he ever said he was sorry.
She’d planned to throw his apology back in his face. She’d tell him she’d cried over and over again for months after he walked out on her and never called her. She’d felt worthless and used and in love with someone who obviously felt nothing for her.
But that was the twenty-year-old, brokenhearted Carolina who’d had all those feelings.
Drew had never once made any promises to her that night, and all her feelings had been just that—her feelings—the ones of a very young girl who’d wrapped all her hopes and dreams in fantasy, none of which had been his fault. She’d known he was leaving campus, that he had a promising career ahead of him with a hockey team. Instead, she’d manufactured some love story in her head that had nothing to do with reality.
Which, again, hadn’t been his fault at all. It had taken her a long time to come to grips with that. But she’d moved on, finished college, and had become an adult. She’d had other relationships and had shoved Drew into a drawer of the past.
Sometimes love taught very painful lessons, but she’d long ago decided she wasn’t equipped for that whole falling in love thing.
“Apology accepted. I’m sorry I brought it up—again.”
He took her hand. “You’re entitled to bring it up as many times as you want to. I was a jerk that night. And a lot before that. I didn’t notice you when I should have.”
He wasn’t making this any easier. “You weren’t supposed to do anything other than be who you were. I was the one who threw myself at you.”
He smiled at her. “You did. Thanks for that. It was good for my ego.”
“As if your ego needed any more stroking. You had girls lining up to crawl into bed with you all through college. For as long as I can remember, you were the hot stud every girl wanted to get with. And you were oblivious to most of them, or you strung them along, choosing the best ones and discarding the less attractive ones.”
“Ouch. Was I really that bad?”
“Yes. You were really that bad. As far as I know, you might still be.”
“Trust me. The only thing keeping me busy these days is hockey.”
“Uh-huh. Somehow I find that difficult to believe. A leopard doesn’t change its spots, Drew. And you haven’t suddenly become a monk.”
“Okay, maybe not. But I’m an adult now, and chasing after women like there’s no tomorrow isn’t high on my priority list anymore.”
She wasn’t sure she bought his reformed-bad-boy speech, but as they ate dinner, she noticed he focused only on her, despite several very attractive women trying to get his attention. Okay, points for him on that one. She’d been out on dates with plenty of men who had a roving eye, who seemed to think that they’d been placed on earth to have women service them.
Generally, those were the one-date-only types. A man who couldn’t pay attention to her for the duration of a date didn’t deserve her, and the one thing she’d learned over the years was that she deserved to have a man who wanted her—really wanted her.
Maybe she had Drew to thank for that, since she’d endured a lot of misery because of him, and she’d grown up during those months she’d spent crying over him and mourning the loss of her fantasies about love and happily ever after.
“You’re quiet over there.”
She lifted her gaze to find him staring at her. “Just enjoying my dinner.”
“The steak is that good?”
“You wouldn’t have brought me here if it wasn’t, isn’t that right?”
The waiter took their plates and Drew leaned back in the chair. “Right. So you’ve had some wine, and you’ve been fed. Feeling better now?”
“I was feeling fine before.”
“No you weren’t. You wanted to rush home and do something about those sketches you made during the game.”
“Maybe.”
“Now your face is flushed and you don’t seem as . . . frenetic.”