"What I didn't tell you is what would happen to Duke. For a wizard, losing a mate is like losing a part of your soul. You've seen Lucan?"
She cringed. Lucan was a haunted shell of a man. "Isn't that just him missing Anka?"
"In part. But what you see now is a thousand percent improvement. Mere weeks ago, he was chained to a bed like an animal, feral and crazed. None of us knew if he would live. Duke saw that. And he still mated with you, knowing full well you planned to break your mate bond and leave him. And if he survived, he would likely be forever alone, since the chances of a second mating are slim. No home, no joy, no children."
Bram clenched his jaw. "While you've been worried about Mason and having a 'normal'
life and protecting your heart, he sacrificed his entire future so that you could have one.
And he never once let on about his pain. Think about that next time he needs to use his magic."
Chapter 18
FELICIA FROZE, STUNNED, AS the information sank in deep. All the implications exploded in her head ... and her heart.
Simon loved her. Really loved her. God, to keep her safe, he'd given up more than she'd ever guessed. She was humbled. And shamed. How could she have been so blind not to have seen his true feelings? Because she'd been too selfish to risk her own misery, too terrified to endanger her heart.
No more.
The emotions that Felicia had locked in a cage for so long sprang free. She knew exactly what she had to do. After all he'd done and all they still faced, she couldn't hide from Simon anymore. And she didn't want to.
In the back of her mind, she knew Mason needed them now, but Felicia also knew it could likely help him if she gave in to her urge to race to Simon's side. Joy, nerves, and impatience all pinged inside her as she grabbed his hand and stared until he looked into her eyes. "I know this is a very bad time for me to say it, but I ... I love you."
She sighed with relief, hope lacing her veins. Telling Simon had, in fact, been cathartic, like a claustrophobic released after spending the day in a small cupboard. Her fear hadn't been totally rational, but now that she'd conquered it, that panic had been worse than the actual act of opening up.
To her shock, Simon turned to glare at Bram. "What did he say to you?"
"Say?" She frowned. "It doesn't matter. Did you hear me?"
"I heard." He looked down, his face set in tense lines. "Felicia, don't tell me what you think I want to hear. I'd rather you say nothing." He shook his head and turned away.
"We must worry about Mason now."
Simon didn't believe her. Was she too late?
"Wait!" She grabbed his arm, her heart bloody near breaking. "I'm saying it not because Bram told me to or because I'm placating you. Simon, I'm saying it because it's true. I realized it when we were in London and I was too afraid to tell you. You've given me everything, cared for me, protected me, stood beside me, understood me. Last night when you held me, I hoped you could feel it. But I want to make certain you know. I want you to hear it from my lips."
The yearning on his face nearly killed her, but he still looked skeptical. "My magic didn't work this morning."
"You caught me off guard. Perhaps with some warning, I'd be better prepared to--"
"We're not going to get any warning," he growled, raking a hand through his hair.
"We've heard screams and voices in this cave twice now. If you weren't here, I'd think that was Merlin's way of scaring people. But you're Untouchable, so they must be real.
You and I both heard Mason, which means Mathias is likely near. I don't know how he got to the tomb before us. Perhaps he's been sneaking around us all this time, using your ability and his wits to get ahead. Which means we will be walking into something lethal.
And we'll get no forewarning. He'll appear and we'll have a split second to act."
And if she didn't take the wall around her heart completely down, they'd die.
"I know." Tears filled her eyes, and guilt flooded her. They needed to be running to Mason's rescue. But Felicia feared if they didn't work this out now, there might not be a later for any of them. "I know that I've disappointed you and hurt you. I'm so sorry."
Simon blew out a huge breath. "I love hearing the words, but ... until you can back up your words by letting me under your guard, we're all in danger. And I'm not certain I can believe you."
"I know you wouldn't have risked your entire future by mating with me if I didn't mean something to you. I wouldn't be risking my heart to tell you that I love you if you didn't mean everything to me."
"So that's what brought this on? Bram told you what would happen to me if you broke our bond?" He cursed. "So I mean 'everything to you' because of what you perceive as my grand romantic gesture?"
She searched his scowling face. "No. Because of you. I knew immediately that you weren't the spoiled, arrogant aristocrat Mason painted you to be. You're the most wonderful, selfless person I know. We're going to get out of here alive because you're going to use your magic, then I'm going to spend a lifetime showing you that you made the right choice."
Simon opened his mouth, but it wasn't his voice she heard next.
"Oh God. No! You can't--"
Mason's voice again, resounding from the bottom of the nearby stairs. A chill wound through her. What if Mathias was hurting Mason even now?
Clearly, she and Simon weren't going to resolve their problems before they had to dash to Mason's rescue. Maybe he'd believe her when the moment of truth arrived and she showed him that she meant every word of her devotion.
Felicia took his hand. "We can't wait anymore."
Simon nodded. "Damn it, we've had no time to try my magic."
"I'll make it work. I swear."
He shrugged, as if he knew he could do nothing more. "I hope you can. Let's go."
Felicia watched as he turned to Bram and motioned for the other wizard to follow.
Nail-biting frustration ate at her. Mason was in grave danger. And Simon didn't believe in her love. Though why should he? She'd done nothing to prove that she was able to follow through on her promise. Yet. But she would let him completely into her heart and soul without a moment's notice. Failure wasn't an option, both for everyone's safety and for Simon.
Wordlessly, he took her elbow. A zing of rightness flowed through her as he guided her down the steep spiral stairs. Bram followed. Whatever it led to had been swallowed in darkness.
Damn, she hated the dark parts of the cavern. She felt blind, vulnerable. She hadn't wanted to say it, but in the pitch blackness, she was too painfully aware that Mathias could be under their nose, and she'd have no clue. In fact, he likely had been all along.
But now, the terror in Mason's voice rang in her head. They had to get to him.
This nightmare must end.
At the bottom of the stairs, the darkness suddenly gave way to a blast of fire. It raged from the far wall several hundred meters away, striking out with hot, frightening flares, almost like a snake's tongue. The wall went on endlessly in both directions. There 191
was no getting around it.
With a gasp at the scorching heat, Felicia pressed her back against Duke's chest, and he braced her with hands on her shoulders.
"C-can your magic bypass that?"
"Perhaps." Simon shrugged. "Normally."