Halsey got up to col ect firewood from the log pile that they’d started building next to the tower. It was a regular Girl Scout camp. She stood by the fire, pleased that she hadn’t forgotten how to build one and keep it going, and smiled at the sight of thornbushes draped with the Spartan-IIIs’ underwear drying in the sun.
The hunting team returned first. Fred, Linda, and Olivia ambled into the camp clutching more smal dead animals, an assortment of greens, and those yel ow tennis bal fruits. Olivia held something in her arms as careful y as if it was a newborn.
It was a fish. A huge, silver, meaty-looking fish. It was the first one Halsey had seen here. They definitely weren’t going to starve, then.
“We decided to skip pizza,” Olivia said. She cradled the fish, looking wistful. “We’ve gone organic.”
The fish seemed to perk everyone up. They took off their helmets and settled down with Halsey to prepare the food, skewering chunks of vegetable and meat on twigs, making morale-boosting comments about everything being al right now but not mentioning Lucy. Mendez appeared from the trees a hundred meters away with Mark, Ash, and Tom trailing behind him.
“You know what we real y need?” Fred said. “A nice big cooking pot. I think it’s time we invented ceramics.”
Mendez walked into the cooking circle, grunted an acknowledgment at nobody in particular, and seemed to be doing a head count. He didn’t meet Halsey’s eyes. “Anyone mind if I light up before dinner?”
“Ration yourself, Chief,” Ash said. “Four puffs. Or you’l have to find some local stuff to dry and smoke.”
“Uh- huh. ” Mendez lit his cigar stub from the taper of dry grass and inhaled deeply. “I may wel do that, Ash. I may yet weaken.”
He walked away and stood with his back to them, facing the river. Halsey wasn’t counting, but he’d taken a lot more than four puffs by the time he turned around, and when he did his turmoil was etched into his face, possibly the first time that Halsey had ever felt the urge to go to him and ask if she could help.
But she knew she couldn’t. It was about Lucy. Nobody was speculating openly about it now, but Halsey was certain that if she could access everyone’s thoughts for most of their waking day, then the majority of them would be about that girl—where she was, what had happened to her, whether she was badly injured and unable to cal for help, and what she’d been chasing when she went missing.
Whatever it was, it hadn’t come back.
Halsey decided she couldn’t just stay out of Mendez’s way and say nothing indefinitely, because this exile might last for years. Assuming he doesn’t shoot me first. She got to her feet and wandered over to him.
“I’ve nearly finished translating the symbols, Chief,” she said, brandishing the achievement like an olive branch. “I’m betting that we’l be able to work it al out then.”
Mendez looked down at the glowing tip of his cigar, then extinguished it careful y on the sole of his boot. “Hope so, Doctor.”
“Like everyone says, Lucy’s smart and tough. She’l hang in there, wherever there is.” Halsey real y was trying to make placatory conversation.
Whatever Mendez had done in the intervening years, she wouldn’t have been able to turn her Spartans into soldiers without him. “So how did you actual y select the Threes?”
He looked up slowly. “Is this going to be about me betraying you and helping Ackerson hijack your project? Because if it is—”
“I was just asking,” she said. “Because I want to know.”
“Wel , you know we didn’t select them on the basis of perfect genomes,” he said. Halsey had suspended the second tranche of the Spartan program because she’d run out of candidates with the ideal genetic profile. She knew he wasn’t going to let her forget it. “They were al orphans. No qualification beyond the Covenant slaughtering their entire family. We asked them if they wanted to get their revenge, and we took the ones who said yes.” He put his cigar back in his belt pouch, but he was staring right into her face. “We took volunteers. We enhanced them some, but we took whatever we could get, and they turned out fine.”
“No filtering at al ?” A six-year-old couldn’t possibly understand combat enough to volunteer, but she didn’t want to start a pissing contest with him over ethics, not in front of the Spartans. “Not even genetic screening?”
“You think it’s al about genes, Doctor? The Spartans that I trained were made from random, raw, imperfect humanity. But by God, they were motivated. And that’s what it’s al about. A state of mind.”
Halsey wanted to resist a debate, but if she’d just nodded and smiled it would have made him just as angry. “If that were true, then we wouldn’t have needed the Spartan program. Exceptional genes create an advantage in any field.”
“What was it you said to me once? Genome is the blueprint, environment and training is the engineer. Phenotype. ”
“Yes, but—”
“I realize you need justification, but your history isn’t up to your science,” Mendez growled. “The most successful special forces in history weren’t genetic supermen. They were every damn size and shape, every age, and some of them weren’t even especial y fit, but they al had one thing that made them great commandos. They believed they could do anything, and then they went out and did it.”
Mendez always knew where to strike to disable. It was part of his training. He could wound psychological y just as wel as he could place a fist or a blade.
My research mattered. My research made a difference. Don’t you give me that commando state of mind bullshit, don’t you dare … “But you let Kurt tamper with their neurobiology, so what kind of state of mind is that?” Halsey defended herself. Why the hel should she take this? She’d dedicated her entire life to the defense of Earth and its colonies, surrendering any chance of the kind of normal family life that other women took for granted. “And that was made il egal years ago.”
“So was goddamn kidnapping and using nonconsenting humans in medical experiments, Doctor, but I never noticed that stopping you. ”
Her attempt to reestablish diplomatic relations with Mendez had crashed and burned inside minutes. She was fuming. You could have chosen to put it aside, Chief, but you didn’t. You found the first chance to take a pop at me. She was suddenly aware of the Spartans in her peripheral vision, frozen in position and watching warily. When she turned, what she saw troubled her. Her Spartans were standing in a knot, and Mendez’s were sitting on the other side of the fire. She got the feeling that it was about more than just sticking with the people you’d known al your life.
Olivia cal ed to them. “This fish is going to be ready soon,” she said, ever the diplomat. “If you want to stake your claim, you better get over here.”
If there had been cold beer and good humor, Halsey reflected, it would have been a pleasant barbecue. Everyone settled down and ate in silence for a while. Eventual y Mendez licked his fingers and wiped them on one of the large leaves that did duty as plates.
“As long as she’s got water, she can last a couple of weeks without food,” he said. He didn’t need to say the word Lucy. “So how far have you got, Doctor?”