‘You’re right, Jean Guy. I wouldn’t normally do it.’
Beauvoir knew that to be the truth. In all the years they’d worked together it had only happened a handful of times, and then only in the most dire situations.
Was this a dire situation? Gamache was sitting forward now, his face suddenly weary. And Beauvoir could have kicked himself. Why hadn’t he seen it before?
‘You don’t trust her, do you? You don’t trust Nichol.’
‘Do you?’
Beauvoir thought for a moment, then nodded his head. ‘She’s impressed me. As you know, I have no love for the woman. I thought she was a complete disaster on her last case, but this time? I think it’s possible she’s changed. But you don’t?’
Gamache waved his hand slightly as though dismissing the suggestion. It wasn’t very convincing.
‘What is it?’ Beauvoir leaned forward now. ‘Tell me.’
But Gamache was silent. There was only one thing, in Beauvoir’s experience, that could produce that kind of silence in his boss.
‘My God. It’s not the Arnot case? Tell me that isn’t it.’ He could feel his anger, and his dinner, rising. He felt this way whenever he thought of Pierre Arnot and what he’d done. To others, to the Sûreté. To Gamache. Surely, though, it was past. And it couldn’t possibly have anything to do with Nichol. Could it?
‘Tell me,’ he demanded. ‘Enough.’ Now the younger man was almost shouting. He caught himself, looked around to see if anyone else had heard, and lowered his voice to an urgent growl. ‘You can’t keep this from me. You can’t take this on yourself. You did the first time and Arnot almost killed you. What is it with Nichol and Arnot?’
‘Leave it be, Jean Guy.’ Gamache reached across the table and gently tapped Beauvoir’s hand. ‘There is no connection. I’m just wary of her, that’s all. Nichol is certainly more agreeable than she was last time. Maybe I’m being too hard on her.’
Beauvoir studied him for a moment. ‘Bullshit. You’re humoring me now. What do you really think?’
‘It’s just a feeling.’ Gamache smiled wryly, waiting for Beauvoir to roll his eyes.
‘Your feelings aren’t always delusional.’
‘Just sometimes? It’s not important, Jean Guy.’