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Jude was too independent to make any fuss; and the contractor paid

him, and left. Jude picked up his tools, and Sue cleansed her brush.

Then their eyes met.

"How could we be so simple as to suppose we might do this!" said

she, dropping to her tragic note. "Of course we ought not--I ought

not--to have come!"

"I had no idea that anybody was going to intrude into such a lonely

place and see us!" Jude returned. "Well, it can't be helped, dear;

and of course I wouldn't wish to injure Willis's trade-connection by

staying." They sat down passively for a few minutes, proceeded out

of the church, and overtaking the boy pursued their thoughtful way

to Aldbrickham.

Fawley had still a pretty zeal in the cause of education, and, as was

natural with his experiences, he was active in furthering "equality

of opportunity" by any humble means open to him. He had joined an

Artizans' Mutual Improvement Society established in the town about

the time of his arrival there; its members being young men of all

creeds and denominations, including Churchmen, Congregationalists,

Baptists, Unitarians, Positivists, and others--agnostics had scarcely

been heard of at this time--their one common wish to enlarge their

minds forming a sufficiently close bond of union. The subscription

was small, and the room homely; and Jude's activity, uncustomary

acquirements, and above all, singular intuition on what to read

and how to set about it--begotten of his years of struggle against

malignant stars--had led to his being placed on the committee.

A few evenings after his dismissal from the church repairs, and

before he had obtained any more work to do, he went to attend a

meeting of the aforesaid committee. It was late when he arrived: all

the others had come, and as he entered they looked dubiously at him,

and hardly uttered a word of greeting. He guessed that something

bearing on himself had been either discussed or mooted. Some

ordinary business was transacted, and it was disclosed that the

number of subscriptions had shown a sudden falling off for that

quarter. One member--a really well-meaning and upright man--began

speaking in enigmas about certain possible causes: that it behoved

them to look well into their constitution; for if the committee were

not respected, and had not at least, in their differences, a common

standard of CONDUCT, they would bring the institution to the ground.

Nothing further was said in Jude's presence, but he knew what this

meant; and turning to the table wrote a note resigning his office

there and then.

Thus the supersensitive couple were more and more impelled to go

away. And then bills were sent in, and the question arose, what

could Jude do with his great-aunt's heavy old furniture, if he left

the town to travel he knew not whither? This, and the necessity of

ready money, compelled him to decide on an auction, much as he would

have preferred to keep the venerable goods.