Jude the Obsure - Page 75/318

The old friendship was imperceptibly renewed, the schoolmaster

speaking of his experiences, and the cousins of theirs. He told them

that he still thought of the Church sometimes, and that though he

could not enter it as he had intended to do in former years he might

enter it as a licentiate. Meanwhile, he said, he was comfortable in

his present position, though he was in want of a pupil-teacher.

They did not stay to supper, Sue having to be indoors before it grew

late, and the road was retraced to Christminster. Though they had

talked of nothing more than general subjects, Jude was surprised to

find what a revelation of woman his cousin was to him. She was so

vibrant that everything she did seemed to have its source in feeling.

An exciting thought would make her walk ahead so fast that he could

hardly keep up with her; and her sensitiveness on some points

was such that it might have been misread as vanity. It was with

heart-sickness he perceived that, while her sentiments towards him

were those of the frankest friendliness only, he loved her more than

before becoming acquainted with her; and the gloom of the walk home

lay not in the night overhead, but in the thought of her departure.

"Why must you leave Christminster?" he said regretfully. "How can

you do otherwise than cling to a city in whose history such men as

Newman, Pusey, Ward, Keble, loom so large!"

"Yes--they do. Though how large do they loom in the history of the

world? ... What a funny reason for caring to stay! I should never

have thought of it!" She laughed.

"Well--I must go," she continued. "Miss Fontover, one of the

partners whom I serve, is offended with me, and I with her; and it

is best to go."

"How did that happen?"

"She broke some statuary of mine."

"Oh? Wilfully?"

"Yes. She found it in my room, and though it was my property she

threw it on the floor and stamped on it, because it was not according

to her taste, and ground the arms and the head of one of the figures

all to bits with her heel--a horrid thing!"

"Too Catholic-Apostolic for her, I suppose? No doubt she called them

popish images and talked of the invocation of saints."

"No... No, she didn't do that. She saw the matter quite

differently."

"Ah! Then I am surprised!"

"Yes. It was for quite some other reason that she didn't like my

patron-saints. So I was led to retort upon her; and the end of it

was that I resolved not to stay, but to get into an occupation in

which I shall be more independent."