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The carts that came could not pass through. They had to wait, the

driver calling and shouting, till the dense crowd would make way.

Everywhere, young fellows from the outlying districts were making

conversation with the girls, standing in the road and at the corners.

The doors of the public-houses were open and full of light, men passed

in and out in a continual stream, everywhere men were calling out to

one another, or crossing to meet one another, or standing in little

gangs and circles, discussing, endlessly discussing. The sense of talk,

buzzing, jarring, half-secret, the endless mining and political

wrangling, vibrated in the air like discordant machinery. And it was

their voices which affected Gudrun almost to swooning. They aroused a

strange, nostalgic ache of desire, something almost demoniacal, never

to be fulfilled.

Like any other common girl of the district, Gudrun strolled up and

down, up and down the length of the brilliant two-hundred paces of the

pavement nearest the market-place. She knew it was a vulgar thing to

do; her father and mother could not bear it; but the nostalgia came

over her, she must be among the people. Sometimes she sat among the

louts in the cinema: rakish-looking, unattractive louts they were. Yet

she must be among them.

And, like any other common lass, she found her 'boy.' It was an

electrician, one of the electricians introduced according to Gerald's

new scheme. He was an earnest, clever man, a scientist with a passion

for sociology. He lived alone in a cottage, in lodgings, in Willey

Green. He was a gentleman, and sufficiently well-to-do. His landlady

spread the reports about him; he WOULD have a large wooden tub in his

bedroom, and every time he came in from work, he WOULD have pails and

pails of water brought up, to bathe in, then he put on clean shirt and

under-clothing EVERY day, and clean silk socks; fastidious and exacting

he was in these respects, but in every other way, most ordinary and

unassuming.

Gudrun knew all these things. The Brangwen's house was one to which the

gossip came naturally and inevitably. Palmer was in the first place a

friend of Ursula's. But in his pale, elegant, serious face there showed

the same nostalgia that Gudrun felt. He too must walk up and down the

street on Friday evening. So he walked with Gudrun, and a friendship

was struck up between them. But he was not in love with Gudrun; he

REALLY wanted Ursula, but for some strange reason, nothing could happen

between her and him. He liked to have Gudrun about, as a

fellow-mind--but that was all. And she had no real feeling for him. He

was a scientist, he had to have a woman to back him. But he was really

impersonal, he had the fineness of an elegant piece of machinery. He

was too cold, too destructive to care really for women, too great an

egoist. He was polarised by the men. Individually he detested and

despised them. In the mass they fascinated him, as machinery fascinated

him. They were a new sort of machinery to him--but incalculable,

incalculable.