Ethelyn's Mistake - Page 3/218

There were matches within her reach, while the little fireplace was not

far away, and, sitting just where she was, Ethelyn Grant burned one

after another, letters and notes, some directed in schoolboy style, and

others showing a manlier hand, as the dates grew more recent and the

envelopes bore a more modern and fashionable look. Over one, the

freshest and the last, Ethelyn lingered a moment, her eyes growing dark

with passion, and her lips twitching nervously as she read:

"BOSTON, April-"Dear Ethie:

I reckon mother is right, after all. She generally is, you

know, so we may as well be resigned, and believe it wicked for cousins

to marry each other. Of course I can never like Nettie as I have liked

you, and I feel a twinge every time I remember the dear old times. But

what must be must, and there's no use fretting. Do you remember old

Colonel Markham's nephew from out West--the one who wore the short pants

and the rusty crape on his hat when he visited his uncle, in Chicopee,

some years ago? I mean the chap who helped you over the fence the time

you stole the colonel's apples. He has become a member of Congress, and

quite a big gun for the West, at least, mother thinks. He called on her

to-day with a message from Mrs. Woodhull, but I did not see him. He goes

up to Chicopee to-morrow, I believe. He is looking for a wife, they say,

and mother thinks it would be a good match for you, as you could go to

Washington next winter and queen it over them all. But don't, Ethie,

don't for thunder's sake! It fairly makes me faint to think of you

belonging to another, even though you may never belong to me. Yours

always, Frank."

There was a dark, defiant look in Ethelyn's face as she applied the

match to this letter, and then watched it blacken and crisp upon the

hearth. How well she remembered the day when she received it--the dark,

dismal April day, when the rain which dropped so fast from the leaden

clouds, seemed weeping for her, who could not weep then, so complete was

her humiliation, so utter her desolation. That was not quite three

months ago, and so much had happened since then as the result of that

M.C.'s visit to Chicopee. He was there again, this morning, an inmate of

the great yellow house, with the large, old-fashioned brass knocker,

and, by just putting aside her curtain, Ethelyn could see the very

window of the chamber where he slept. But Ethelyn had other matters in

hand, and if she thought at all of that window whose shutters were

rarely opened except when Colonel Markham had, as now, an honored

guest, it was with a faint shudder of terror, and she went on destroying

mementos which were only a mockery of the past. One little note, the

first ever received from Frank, after a, memorable morning in the

huckleberry hills, she could not burn. It was only a line, and, if read

by a stranger, would convey no particular meaning; so she laid it aside

with the lock of light, soft hair, which clung to her fingers with a

kind of caressing touch, and brought to her hot eyelids a mist which

cooled their feverish heat. And now nothing remained of the treasures

but a tiny tortoise-shell box, where, in its bed of pink cotton, lay a

little ring, with "Ethie" marked upon it. It was too small for the

finger it once encircled, for Ethel was but a child when first she wore

it. Her hands were larger; plumper, now, and it would not pass the

second joint of her finger, though she exerted all her strength to push

it on, taking a kind of savage delight in the pain it caused her, and

feeling that she was thus revenging herself on someone, she hardly knew

or cared whom. At last, however, with a quick, jerking motion she drew

it off, and covering her face with her hands, moaned bitterly: "It hurts! it hurts! just as the bonds hurt which are closing around my

heart. Oh! Frank, Frank, it was cruel to serve me so."