Ethelyn's Mistake - Page 86/218

The gray light of a November morning was breaking over the prairies when

Richard stooped down to kiss his wife, who did not think it worth her

while to rise so early even to see him off. She felt that she had been

unjustly dealt with, and up to the very last maintained the same cold,

icy manner so painful to Richard, who would fain have won from her one

smile to cheer him in his absence. But the smile was not given, though

the lips which Richard touched did move a little, and he tried to

believe it was a kiss they meant to give. Only the day before Ethie had

heard from Aunt Van Buren that Frank was to be married at Christmas,

when they would all go on to Washington, where they confidently expected

to meet Ethelyn. With a kind of grim satisfaction Ethelyn showed this to

her husband, hoping to awaken in him some remorse for his cruelty to

her, if, indeed, he was capable of remorse, which she doubted. She did

not know him, for if possible he suffered more than she did, though in a

different way. It hurt him to leave her there alone feeling as she did.

He hated to go without her, carrying only in his mind the memory of the

white, rigid face which had not smiled on him for so long. He wanted her

to seem interested in something, for her cold apathy of manner puzzled

and alarmed him; so remembering her aunt's letter on the morning of his

departure, he spoke of it to her and said, "What shall I tell Mrs. Van

Buren for you? I shall probably see more or less of them."

"Tell nothing; prisoners send no messages," was Ethelyn's reply; and in

the dim gray of the morning the two faces looked a moment at each other

with such thoughts and passions written upon them as were pitiable

to behold.

But when Richard was fairly gone, when the tones of his voice bidding

his family good-by had ceased, and Ethelyn sat leaning on her elbow and

listening to the sound of the wheels which carried him away, such a

feeling of utter desolation and loneliness swept over her that, burying

her face in the pillows, she wept bitterer tears of remorse and regret

than she had ever wept before.

That day was a long and dreary one to all the members of the prairie

farmhouse. It was lonely there the first day of Richard's absence, but

now it was drearier than ever; and with a harsh, forbidding look upon

her face, Mrs. Markham went about her work, leaving Ethelyn entirely

alone. She did not believe her daughter-in-law was any sicker than

herself. "It was only airs," she thought, when at noon Ethelyn declined

the boiled beef and cabbage, saying just the odor of it made her sick.

"Nothing but airs and ugliness," she persisted in saying to herself, as

she prepared a slice of nice cream toast with a soft-boiled egg and cup

of fragrant black tea. Ethie did not refuse this, and was even gracious

enough to thank her mother-in-law for her extra trouble, but she did it

in such a queenly as well as injured kind of way, that Mrs. Markham felt

more aggrieved than ever, and, for a good woman, who sometimes spoke in

meeting, slammed the door considerably hard as she left the room and

went back to her kitchen, where the table had been laid ever since

Ethelyn took to eating upstairs. So long as she ate with the family Mrs.

Markham felt rather obliged to take her meals in the front room, but it

made a deal more work, and she was glad to return to her olden ways once

more. Eunice was gone off on an errand, and so she felt at liberty to

speak her mind freely to her boys as they gathered around the table.