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She twined her thin, hot fingers round Beulah's cold hand, and spoke

in a weary tone. The orphan's features twitched an instant, and her

old troubled look came back, as she said: "I wish I could help you, Cornelia. It must be terrible, indeed, to

stand on the brink of the grave and have no belief in anything. I

would give more than I possess to be able to assist you, but I

cannot; I have no truth to offer you; I have yet discovered nothing

for myself. I am not so sanguine as I was a year ago, but I still

hope that I shall succeed."

"You will not; you will not. It is all mocking mystery, and no more

than the aggregated generations of the past can you find any

solution."

Cornelia shook her head, and leaned back in her chair.

"Philosophy promises one," replied Beulah resolutely.

"Philosophy! Take care! That hidden rock stranded me. Listen to me.

Philosophy, or, what is nowadays its synonym, metaphysical systems,

are worse than useless. They will make you doubt your own individual

existence, if that be possible. I am older than you; I am a sample

of the efficacy of such systems. Oh, the so-called philosophers of

this century and the last are crowned heads of humbuggery! Adepts in

the famous art of"

"'Wrapping nonsense round,

With pomp and darkness, till it seems profound.'"

"They mock earnest, enquiring minds with their refined,

infinitesimal, homeopathic 'developments' of deity; metaphysical

wolves in Socratic cloaks. Oh, they have much to answer for! 'Spring

of philosophy!' ha! ha! They have made a frog pond of it, in which

to launch their flimsy, painted toy barks. Have done with them,

Beulah, or you will be miserably duped."

"Have you lost faith in Emerson and Theodore Parker?" asked Beulah.

"Yes; lost faith in everything and everybody, except Mrs. Asbury.

Emerson's atheistic fatalism is enough to unhinge human reason; he

is a great and, I believe, an honest thinker, and of his genius I

have the profoundest admiration. An intellectual Titan, he wages a

desperate war with received creeds, and, rising on the ruins of

systems, struggles to scale the battlements of truth. As for Parker,

a careful perusal of his works was enough to disgust me. But no more

of this, Beulah--so long as you have found nothing to rest upon. I

had hoped much from your earnest search; but since it has been

futile, let the subject drop. Give me that glass of medicine. Dr.

Hartwell was here just before you came. He is morose and haggard;

what ails him?"