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"Nonsense! Nobody can . . . Indeed! Pah! You'll have to be shown that

somebody can. I can. Nobody . . . " He made a contemptuous hissing

noise. "More likely you can't. They have done something to you.

Something's crushed your pluck. You can't face a man--that's what it is.

What made you like this? Where do you come from? You have been put

upon. The scoundrels--whoever they are, men or women, seem to have

robbed you of your very name. You say you are not Miss Smith. Who are

you, then?"

She did not answer. He muttered, "Not that I care," and fell silent,

because the fatuous self-confident chatter of the Fyne girls could be

heard at the very gate. But they were not going to bed yet. They passed

on. He waited a little in silence and immobility, then stamped his foot

and lost control of himself. He growled at her in a savage passion. She

felt certain that he was threatening her and calling her names. She was

no stranger to abuse, as we know, but there seemed to be a particular

kind of ferocity in this which was new to her. She began to tremble. The

especially terrifying thing was that she could not make out the nature of

these awful menaces and names. Not a word. Yet it was not the shrinking

anguish of her other experiences of angry scenes. She made a mighty

effort, though her knees were knocking together, and in an expiring voice

demanded that he should let her go indoors. "Don't stop me. It's no

use. It's no use," she repeated faintly, feeling an invincible obstinacy

rising within her, yet without anger against that raging man.

He became articulate suddenly, and, without raising his voice, perfectly

audible.

"No use! No use! You dare stand here and tell me that--you white-faced

wisp, you wreath of mist, you little ghost of all the sorrow in the

world. You dare! Haven't I been looking at you? You are all eyes. What

makes your cheeks always so white as if you had seen something . . .

Don't speak. I love it . . . No use! And you really think that I can

now go to sea for a year or more, to the other side of the world

somewhere, leaving you behind. Why! You would vanish . . . what little

there is of you. Some rough wind will blow you away altogether. You

have no holding ground on earth. Well, then trust yourself to me--to the

sea--which is deep like your eyes."

She said: "Impossible." He kept quiet for a while, then asked in a

totally changed tone, a tone of gloomy curiosity: "You can't stand me then? Is that it?"