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"Not very well," repeated the mate mournfully. "Do you think a man with

a face like that can hope to live his life out? You haven't knocked

about long in this world yet, but you are a sailor, you have been in

three or four ships, you say. Well, have you ever seen a shipmaster

walking his own deck as if he did not know what he had underfoot? Have

you? Dam'me if I don't think that he forgets where he is. Of course he

can be no other than a prime seaman; but it's lucky, all the same, he has

me on board. I know by this time what he wants done without being told.

Do you know that I have had no order given me since we left port? Do you

know that he has never once opened his lips to me unless I spoke to him

first? I? His chief officer; his shipmate for full six years, with whom

he had no cross word--not once in all that time. Aye. Not a cross look

even. True that when I do make him speak to me, there is his dear old

self, the quick eye, the kind voice. Could hardly be other to his old

Franklin. But what's the good? Eyes, voice, everything's miles away.

And for all that I take good care never to address him when the poop

isn't clear. Yes! Only we two and nothing but the sea with us. You

think it would be all right; the only chief mate he ever had--Mr.

Franklin here and Mr. Franklin there--when anything went wrong the first

word you would hear about the decks was 'Franklin!'--I am thirteen years

older than he is--you would think it would be all right, wouldn't you?

Only we two on this poop on which we saw each other first--he a young

master--told me that he thought I would suit him very well--we two, and

thirty-one days out at sea, and it's no good! It's like talking to a man

standing on shore. I can't get him back. I can't get at him. I feel

sometimes as if I must shake him by the arm: "Wake up! Wake up! You are

wanted, sir . . . !"

Young Powell recognized the expression of a true sentiment, a thing so

rare in this world where there are so many mutes and so many excellent

reasons even at sea for an articulate man not to give himself away, that

he felt something like respect for this outburst. It was not loud. The

grotesque squat shape, with the knob of the head as if rammed down

between the square shoulders by a blow from a club, moved vaguely in a

circumscribed space limited by the two harness-casks lashed to the front

rail of the poop, without gestures, hands in the pockets of the jacket,

elbows pressed closely to its side; and the voice without resonance,

passed from anger to dismay and back again without a single louder word

in the hurried delivery, interrupted only by slight gasps for air as if

the speaker were being choked by the suppressed passion of his grief.