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She beat him at his own honourable game and the thoroughness of her

serenity disconcerted Anthony a bit. It was he who stammered when it

came to talking. The suppressed fierceness of his character carried him

on after the first word or two masterfully enough. But it was as if they

both had taken a bite of the same bitter fruit. He was thinking with

mournful regret not unmixed with surprise: "That fellow Fyne has been

telling me the truth. She does not care for me a bit." It humiliated

him and also increased his compassion for the girl who in this darkness

of life, buffeted and despairing, had fallen into the grip of his

stronger will, abandoning herself to his arms as on a night of shipwreck.

Flora on her side with partial insight (for women are never blind with

the complete masculine blindness) looked on him with some pity; and she

felt pity for herself too. It was a rejection, a casting out; nothing

new to her. But she who supposed all her sensibility dead by this time,

discovered in herself a resentment of this ultimate betrayal. She had no

resignation for this one. With a sort of mental sullenness she said to

herself: "Well, I am here. I am here without any nonsense. It is not my

fault that I am a mere worthless object of pity."

And these things which she could tell herself with a clear conscience

served her better than the passionate obstinacy of purpose could serve

Roderick Anthony. She was much more sure of herself than he was. Such

are the advantages of mere rectitude over the most exalted generosity.

And so they went out to get married, the people of the house where she

lodged having no suspicion of anything of the sort. They were only

excited at a "gentleman friend" (a very fine man too) calling on Miss

Smith for the first time since she had come to live in the house. When

she returned, for she did come back alone, there were allusions made to

that outing. She had to take her meals with these rather vulgar people.

The woman of the house, a scraggy, genteel person, tried even to provoke

confidences. Flora's white face with the deep blue eyes did not strike

their hearts as it did the heart of Captain Anthony, as the very face of

the suffering world. Her pained reserve had no power to awe them into

decency.

Well, she returned alone--as in fact might have been expected. After

leaving the Registry Office Flora de Barral and Roderick Anthony had gone

for a walk in a park. It must have been an East-End park but I am not

sure. Anyway that's what they did. It was a sunny day. He said to her:

"Everything I have in the world belongs to you. I have seen to that

without troubling my brother-in-law. They have no call to interfere."