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Each situation created either by folly or wisdom has its psychological

moment. The behaviour of young Powell with its mixture of boyish

impulses combined with instinctive prudence, had not created it--I can't

say that--but had discovered it to the very people involved. What would

have happened if he had made a noise about his discovery? But he didn't.

His head was full of Mrs. Anthony and he behaved with a discretion beyond

his years. Some nice children often do; and surely it is not from

reflection. They have their own inspirations. Young Powell's

inspiration consisted in being "enthusiastic" about Mrs. Anthony.

'Enthusiastic' is really good. And he was amongst them like a child,

sensitive, impressionable, plastic--but unable to find for himself any

sort of comment.

I don't know how much mine may be worth; but I believe that just then the

tension of the false situation was at its highest. Of all the forms

offered to us by life it is the one demanding a couple to realize it

fully, which is the most imperative. Pairing off is the fate of mankind.

And if two beings thrown together, mutually attracted, resist the

necessity, fail in understanding and voluntarily stop short of the--the

embrace, in the noblest meaning of the word, then they are committing a

sin against life, the call of which is simple. Perhaps sacred. And the

punishment of it is an invasion of complexity, a tormenting, forcibly

tortuous involution of feelings, the deepest form of suffering from which

indeed something significant may come at last, which may be criminal or

heroic, may be madness or wisdom--or even a straight if despairing

decision.

Powell on taking his eyes off the old gentleman noticed Captain Anthony,

swarthy as an African, by the side of Flora whiter than the lilies, take

his handkerchief out and wipe off his forehead the sweat of anguish--like

a man who is overcome. "And no wonder," commented Mr. Powell here. Then

the captain said, "Hadn't you better go back to your room." This was to

Mrs. Anthony. He tried to smile at her. "Why do you look startled? This

night is like any other night."

"Which," Powell again commented to me earnestly, "was a lie . . . No

wonder he sweated." You see from this the value of Powell's comments.

Mrs. Anthony then said: "Why are you sending me away?"

"Why! That you should go to sleep. That you should rest." And Captain

Anthony frowned. Then sharply, "You stay here, Mr. Powell. I shall want

you presently."

As a matter of fact Powell had not moved. Flora did not mind his

presence. He himself had the feeling of being of no account to those

three people. He was looking at Mrs. Anthony as unabashed as the

proverbial cat looking at a king. Mrs. Anthony glanced at him. She did

not move, gripped by an inexplicable premonition. She had arrived at the

very limit of her endurance as the object of Anthony's magnanimity; she

was the prey of an intuitive dread of she did not know what mysterious

influence; she felt herself being pushed back into that solitude, that

moral loneliness, which had made all her life intolerable. And then, in

that close communion established again with Anthony, she felt--as on that

night in the garden--the force of his personal fascination. The passive

quietness with which she looked at him gave her the appearance of a

person bewitched--or, say, mesmerically put to sleep--beyond any notion

of her surroundings.