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The daughter of de Barral probably enjoyed her jolly ride with the jolly

Charley (infinitely more jolly than going out with a stupid old riding-

master), very much indeed, because the Fynes saw them coming back at a

later hour than usual. In fact it was getting nearly dark. On

dismounting, helped off by the delightful Charley, she patted the neck of

her horse and went up the steps. Her last ride. She was then within a

few days of her sixteenth birthday, a slight figure in a riding habit,

rather shorter than the average height for her age, in a black bowler hat

from under which her fine rippling dark hair cut square at the ends was

hanging well down her back. The delightful Charley mounted again to take

the two horses round to the mews. Mrs. Fyne remaining at the window saw

the house door close on Miss de Barral returning from her last ride.

And meantime what had the governess (out of a nobleman's family) so

judiciously selected (a lady, and connected with well-known county people

as she said) to direct the studies, guard the health, form the mind,

polish the manners, and generally play the perfect mother to that

luckless child--what had she been doing? Well, having got rid of her

charge by the most natural device possible, which proved her practical

sense, she started packing her belongings, an act which showed her clear

view of the situation. She had worked methodically, rapidly, and well,

emptying the drawers, clearing the tables in her special apartment of

that big house, with something silently passionate in her thoroughness;

taking everything belonging to her and some things of less unquestionable

ownership, a jewelled penholder, an ivory and gold paper knife (the house

was full of common, costly objects), some chased silver boxes presented

by de Barral and other trifles; but the photograph of Flora de Barral,

with the loving inscription, which stood on her writing desk, of the most

modern and expensive style, in a silver-gilt frame, she neglected to

take. Having accidentally, in the course of the operations, knocked it

off on the floor she let it lie there after a downward glance. Thus it,

or the frame at least, became, I suppose, part of the assets in the de

Barral bankruptcy.

At dinner that evening the child found her company dull and brusque. It

was uncommonly slow. She could get nothing from her governess but

monosyllables, and the jolly Charley actually snubbed the various cheery

openings of his "little chum"--as he used to call her at times,--but not

at that time. No doubt the couple were nervous and preoccupied. For all

this we have evidence, and for the fact that Flora being offended with

the delightful nephew of her profoundly respected governess sulked

through the rest of the evening and was glad to retire early. Mrs.,

Mrs.--I've really forgotten her name--the governess, invited her nephew

to her sitting-room, mentioning aloud that it was to talk over some

family matters. This was meant for Flora to hear, and she heard

it--without the slightest interest. In fact there was nothing

sufficiently unusual in such an invitation to arouse in her mind even a

passing wonder. She went bored to bed and being tired with her long ride

slept soundly all night. Her last sleep, I won't say of innocence--that

word would not render my exact meaning, because it has a special meaning

of its own--but I will say: of that ignorance, or better still, of that

unconsciousness of the world's ways, the unconsciousness of danger, of

pain, of humiliation, of bitterness, of falsehood. An unconsciousness

which in the case of other beings like herself is removed by a gradual

process of experience and information, often only partial at that, with

saving reserves, softening doubts, veiling theories. Her unconsciousness

of the evil which lives in the secret thoughts and therefore in the open

acts of mankind, whenever it happens that evil thought meets evil

courage; her unconsciousness was to be broken into with profane violence

with desecrating circumstances, like a temple violated by a mad, vengeful

impiety. Yes, that very young girl, almost no more than a child--this

was what was going to happen to her. And if you ask me, how, wherefore,

for what reason? I will answer you: Why, by chance! By the merest

chance, as things do happen, lucky and unlucky, terrible or tender,

important or unimportant; and even things which are neither, things so

completely neutral in character that you would wonder why they do happen

at all if you didn't know that they, too, carry in their insignificance

the seeds of further incalculable chances.