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"No, Mary. He is not built that way. It's his one big fault. Always to

be what he thinks people have labeled him, or to seem to be. To be that

in defiance, knowing in his heart he really isn't that at all. It's a

curious psychological study. It makes me think of nothing else but when

the Prince of the Power of the Air wanted to be God. Mark wants to be a

young God. When he finds he's not taken that way he makes himself look

like the devil in defiance. Don't you remember, Mary, how when Bob

Bliss broke that memorial window in the church and said it was Mark did

it, how Mark stood looking, defiantly from one to another of us to see

if we would believe it, and when he found the elders were all against

him and had begun to get ready for punishment, he lifted his fine young

shoulders, and folded his arms, and just bowed in acquiescence, as if

to say yes, he had done it? Don't you remember, Mary? He nearly broke

my heart that day, the hurt look in his eyes; the game, mistaken,

little devil! He was only ten, and yet for four long months he bore the

blame in the eyes of the whole village for breaking that window, till

Bob told the truth and cleared him. Not because he wanted to save Bob

Bliss, for everybody knew he was a little scamp, and needed punishment,

but because he was hurt--hurt way down into the soul of him to

think anybody had thought he would want to break the window we

had all worked so hard to buy. And he actually broke three cellar

windows in that vacant store by the post office, yes, and paid for

them, just to keep up his character and give us some reason for our

belief against him."

The wife with a cloud of anxiety in her eyes, and disapproval in her

voice, answered slowly: "That's a bad trait, Graham. I can't understand it. It is something

wrong in his nature."

"Yes, Mary, it is sin, original sin, but it comes at him from a

different direction from most of us, that's all. It comes through

sensitiveness. It is his reaction to a deep and mortal hurt. Some men

would be stimulated to finer action by criticism, he is stimulated to

defy, and he does not know that he is trying to defy God and all the

laws of the universe. Some day he will find it out, and know that only

through humility can he make good."