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And there I stood in the shadow of the pantry and saw my father take two

armfuls of my costly linen and lace out into the garden. Nothing was

spared me, for from the window I could see him and the marauding Jaguar

weight their perfumed whiteness down with sticks and stones and clods of

earth. I suffered, but silently.

"Good night, sir. God's blessing," I heard the rich voice calling as the

half-bare feet padded away as swiftly as they had come through the

garden, leaving father standing under the rose vine watching him go. And

I watched father--and for some reason my breath seemed suspended in my

lungs.

For a very long minute he stood looking at the ice bowl and the bottle;

then with a queer wry smile he walked over and put them both in the

refrigerator, though the bottle's place was in the sideboard, and closed

the door carefully. Then he paused again and said under his breath,

"You, Judge Nickols Morris Powers!" He smiled at himself with

humorous pity and tiptoed past me into the front hall and up the

stairway to his rooms above.

I seemed to feel strange padding footsteps down in my depths and I also

tiptoed up to my room after I had heard his door shut.

After I had switched on my light (for under the roof of the Poplars

electricity had come to aid the candles of hallowed tradition, and was

called by Mammy, in deep suspicion, "ha'nt light") I discovered clutched

in my cold fingers the yellow envelope the romantic Mr. Pate had brought

to me in the midnight. It read: "Am coming down on Friday. Am afraid to trust the world and the

flesh and think the third member of the carnal firm ought to be

on the job. N."

"Now I am frightened really," I confided to myself as I slipped between

the scented sheets and drew a corner of the rose-colored blanket over my

head. "I don't know what to do."