The Amateur Gentleman - Page 58/395

The Reader's Kind Approbation "In ancient times, sirs," began the stranger, with his gaze upon the

hurrying waters of the brook, "when a man had committed some great

sin he hid himself from the world, and lashed himself with cruel

stripes, he walked barefoot upon sharp flints and afflicted himself

with grievous pains and penalties, glorying in the blood of his

atonement, and wasting himself and his remaining years in woeful

solitude, seeking, thereby, to reclaim his soul from the wrath

to come. But, as for me, I walk the highways preaching always

forgiveness and forgetfulness of self, and if men grow angry at my

teaching and misuse me, the pain of wounds, the hardships, the

fatigue, I endure them all with a glad and cheerful mind, seeking

thereby to work out my redemption and atonement, for I was a very

selfish man." Here the stranger paused, and his face seemed more

lined and worn, and his white hair whiter, as he stared down into

the running waters of the brook.

"Sirs," he continued, speaking with bent head, "I once had a daughter,

and I loved her dearly, but my name was dearer yet. I was proud of

her beauty, but prouder of my ancient name, for I was a selfish man."

"We lived in the country, a place remote and quiet, and consequently

led a very solitary, humdrum life, because I was ever fond of books

and flowers and the solitude of trees--a selfish man always. And so,

at last, because she was young and high-spirited, she ran away from

my lonely cottage with one who was a villain. And I grieved for her,

young sirs, I grieved much and long, because I was lonely, but I

grieved more for my name, my honorable name that she had besmirched,

because, as I told you, I was a selfish man." Again the stranger was

silent, sitting ever with bent head staring down at the crystal

waters of the brook, only he clasped his thin hands and wrung them

as he continued: "One evening, as I sat among my roses with a book in my hand, she

came back to me through the twilight, and flung herself upon her

knees before me, and besought my forgiveness with sobs and bitter,

bitter tears. Ah, young sirs! I can hear her weeping yet. The sound

of it is always in my ears. So she knelt to me in her abasement with

imploring hands stretched out to me. Ah, the pity of those white

appealing hands, the pity of them! But I, sirs, being as I say a

selfish man and remembering only my proud and honorable name, I, her

father, spurned her from me with reproaches and vile words, such

burning, searing words as no daughter should hear or father utter."