Cousin Maude - Page 26/138

"Oh, father, father," the cripple essayed to say, but he could not

speak, so full of pain was his little, bursting heart, and that

night he lay awake, praying that he might die and so be out of the

way.

The next morning he asked Maude to draw him to the churchyard where

"his other mother," as he called her, was buried. Maude complied,

and when they were there, placed him at his request upon the ground,

where stretching himself out at his full length, he said: "Look,

Maude, won't mine be a little grave?" then, ere she could answer the

strange question, he continued, "I want to die so bad; and if you

leave me lying here in the long grass maybe God's angel will take me

up to heaven. Will I be lame, there, think you?"

"Oh, Louis, Louis, what do you mean?" cried Maude, and as well as he

could, for the tears he shed, Louis told her what he meant.

"Father don't love me because I'm lame, and he called me a cripple,

too. What is a cripple, Maude? Is it anything very bad?" and his

beautiful brown eyes turned anxiously toward his sister.

He had never heard that word before, and to him it had a fearful

significance, even worse than lameness. In an instant Maude knelt by

his side--his head was pillowed on her bosom, and in the silent

graveyard, with the quiet dead around. them, she spoke blessed words

of comfort to her brother, telling him what a cripple was, and that

because he bore that name he was dearer far to her.

"Your father will love you, too," she said, "when he learns how good

you are. He loves Nellie, and--"

Ere she could say more she was interrupted by Louis, on whose mind

another truth had dawned, and who now said, "But he don't love you

as he does Nellie. Why not? Are you a cripple, too?"

Folding him still closer in her arms, and kissing his fair, white

brow, Maude answered: "Your father, Louis, is not mine--for mine is

dead, and his grave is far away. I came here to live when I was a

little girl, not quite as old as you, and Nellie is not my sister,

though you are my darling brother."

"And do you love father?" asked Louis, his eyes still fixed upon her

face as if he would read the truth.

Every feeling of Maude Remington's heart answered, "No," to that

question, but she could not say so to the boy, and she replied, "Not

as I could love my own father--neither does he love me, for I am not

his child."