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The Social Union itself, though not a brilliant success in all points, is

still not a failure; and the promise of its future is in the fact that it

continues to have a present. The people of Hatboro' are rather proud of

it, and strangers visit it as one of the possible solutions of one of the

social problems. It is predicted that it cannot go on; that it must either

do better or do worse; but it goes on the same.

Putney studies its existence in the light of his own infirmity, to which he

still yields from time to time, as he has always done. He professes to find

there a law which would account for a great many facts of human experience

otherwise inexplicable. He does not attempt to define this occult

preservative principle, but he offers himself and the Social Union as

proofs of its existence; and he argues that if they can only last long

enough they will finally be established in a virtue and prosperity as great

as those of Mr. Gerrish and his store.

Annie sometimes feels that nothing else can explain the maintenance of Lyra

Wilmington's peculiar domestic relations at the point which perpetually

invites comment and never justifies scandal. The situation seems to her as

lamentable as ever. She grieves over Lyra, and likes her, and laughs with

her; she no longer detests Jack Wilmington so much since he showed himself

so willing and helpful about the Social Union; she thinks there must be a

great deal of good in him, and sometimes she is sorry for him, and longs to

speak again to Lyra about the wrong she is doing him. One of the dangers

of having a very definite point of view is the temptation of abusing it to

read the whole riddle of the painful earth. Annie has permitted herself to

think of Lyra's position as one which would be impossible in a state of

things where there was neither poverty nor riches, and there was neither

luxury on one hand to allure, nor the fear of want to constrain on the

other.

When her recoil from the fulfilment of her volunteer pledge to Mr. Peck

brought her face to face with her own weakness, there were two ways back

to self-respect, either of which she might take. She might revert to her

first opinion of him, and fortify herself in that contempt and rejection of

his ideas, or she might abandon herself to them, with a vague intention of

reparation to him, and accept them to the last insinuation of their logic.

This was what she did, and while her life remained the same outwardly, it

was inwardly all changed. She never could tell by what steps she reached

her agreement with the minister's philosophy; perhaps, as a woman, it

was not possible she should; but she had a faith concerning it to which

she bore unswerving allegiance, and it was Putney's delight to witness

its revolutionary effect on an old Hatboro' Kilburn, the daughter of a

shrewd lawyer and canny politician like her father, and the heir of an

aristocratic tradition, a gentlewoman born and bred. He declared himself

a reactionary in comparison with her, and had the habit of taking the

conservative side against her. She was in the joke of this; but it was a

real trouble to her for a time that Dr. Morrell, after admitting the force

of her reasons, should be content to rest in a comfortable inconclusion

as to his conduct, till one day she reflected that this was what she was

herself doing, and that she differed from him only in the openness with

which she proclaimed her opinions. Being a woman, her opinions were treated

by the magnates of Hatboro' as a good joke, the harmless fantasies of an

old maid, which she would get rid of if she could get anybody to marry her;

being a lady, and very well off, they were received with deference, and

she was left to their uninterrupted enjoyment. Putney amused himself by

saying that she was the fiercest apostle of labour that never did a stroke

of work; but no one cared half so much for all that as for the question

whether her affair with Dr. Morrell was a friendship or a courtship. They

saw an activity of attention on his part which would justify the most

devout belief in the latter, and yet they were confronted with the fact

that it so long remained eventless. The two theories, one that she was

amusing herself with him, and the other that he was just playing with her,

divided public opinion, but they did not molest either of the parties to

the mystery; and the village, after a season of acute conjecture, quiesced

into that sarcastic sufferance of the anomaly into which it may have been

noticed that small communities are apt to subside from such occasions.

Except for some such irreconcilable as Mrs. Gerrish, it was a good joke

that if you could not find Dr. Morrell in his office after tea, you could

always find him at Miss Kilburn's. Perhaps it might have helped solve the

mystery if it had been known that she could not accept the situation,

whatever it really was, without satisfying herself upon two points, which

resolved themselves into one in the process of the inquiry.