The Awakening of Helena Richie - Page 113/229

Sam, leaning on the gate, watched his grandfather's toiling progress

up the hill. His face was dull, and when he spoke all the youth seemed

to have dropped out of his voice.

"Grandfather," he said, when Mr. Wright was within speaking distance,

"I want to go away from Old Chester. Will you give me some money,

sir?"

Benjamin Wright, his feet wide apart, and both hands gripping the top

of his stick, came to a panting standstill and gaped at him. He did

not quite take the boy's words in; then, as he grasped the idea that

Sam was agreeing to the suggestion which he had himself made more than

a month before, he burst out furiously. "Why the devil didn't you say

so, yesterday? Why did you let me--you young jackass!"

Sam looked at him in faint surprise. Then he proceeded to explain

himself: "Of course, father won't give me any money. And I haven't got

any myself--except about twelve dollars. And you were kind enough,

sir, to say that you would help me to go and see if I could get a

publisher for the drama. I would like to go to-morrow, if you please."

"Go?" said Benjamin Wright, scowling and chewing orange-skin rapidly,

"the sooner the better! I'm glad to get rid of you. But, confound you!

why didn't you tell me so yesterday? Then I needn't have--Well, how

much money do you want? Have you told your--your mother that you are

going? Come on up to the house, and I'll give you a check. But why

didn't you make up your mind to this yesterday?" Snarling and

snapping, and then falling into silence, he began to trudge up the

driveway to his old house.

Sam said briefly that he didn't know how much money he wanted, and

that he had not as yet told his family of his purpose. "I'll tell

mother to-night," he said. Then he, too, was silent, his young step

falling in with his grandfather's shuffling gait.

When Mr. Wright left her, Helena stood staring after him, sobbing

under her breath. She was terrified, but almost instantly she began to

be angry....

That old man, creeping away along the road, had told her that he would

not betray her; but his knowledge was a menace, and his surprise that

she should have David, an insult! Of course, her way of living was

considered "wrong" by people who cannot understand such situations--

old-fashioned, narrow-minded people. But the idea of any harm coming

to David by it was ridiculous! As for Sam Wright, all that sort of

thing was impossible, because it was repugnant. No married woman,

"respectable," as such women call themselves, could have found the

boy's love-making more repugnant than she did. And certainly her

conduct in Old Chester was absolutely irreproachable: she went to

church fairly often; she gave liberally to all the good causes of the

village; she was kind to her servants, and courteous to these stupid

Old Chester people. And yet, simply because she had been forced by

Frederick's cruelty into a temporary unconventionality, this dingy,

grimy old man despised her! "He looked at me as if I were--I don't

know what!"