The Awakening of Helena Richie - Page 158/229

After a pause he said gently, that he hoped she would sit with Mrs.

King and himself at the funeral on Wednesday.

Helena caught her hands together convulsively; "I go? Oh, no, no! I

am not going."

The doctor was greatly distressed. "I know it is hard for you, but I'm

afraid Samuel and his wife will be so hurt if you don't come. They

know the boy was fond of you--you were always so good to him. I don't

like to urge you, because I know it pains you but--"

"Oh, I can't--I can't!"

She turned so white that William had not the heart to say anything

more. But that same kind heart ached so for the father and mother,

that he was grateful to her when he saw her on Wednesday, among the

people gathering at the church. "Just like her unselfishness!" he said

to himself.

All Old Chester, saddened and awed, came to show its sympathy for the

stricken parents, and its pity, if nothing more, for the dead boy. But

Helena, ghastly pale, had no room in her mind for either pity or

sympathy. She heard Mr. Dilworth's subdued voice directing her to a

pew, and a few minutes afterwards found herself sitting between Dr.

and Mrs. King. Martha greeted her with an appropriate sigh; but Mrs.,

Richie did not notice her. There was no sound in the waiting church

except once in a while a long-drawn breath, or the faint rustle of

turning leaves as some one looked for the burial service. The windows

with their little border of stained glass, were tilted half-way open

this hot morning, and sometimes the silence was stirred by the brush

of sparrows in the ivy under the sills. On the worn carpet in the

chancel the sunshine lay in patches of red and blue and purple, that

flickered noiselessly when the wind moved the maple leaves outside; it

was all so quiet that Helena could hear her own half-sobbing breaths.

After a while, the first low note of the organ crept into the

stillness, and as it deepened into a throbbing chord, there was the

grave rustle of a rising congregation. Then from the church door came

the sudden shock of words: "I am the Resurrection and the Life, saith the Lord."

Helena, clutching at the back of the next pew, stood up with the rest.

Suddenly she swayed, as though the earth was moving under her feet....

The step of the bearers came heavily up the aisle. Her eyes fled from

what they carried--("oh, was he so tall?")--and then shuddered back

again to stare.