The Awakening of Helena Richie - Page 56/229

At the door he kissed her hurriedly; but she followed him, bareheaded,

out into the mist, catching his hand as they went down the path.

"Good-by!" he called back from the hinged step of the stage. "Get

along, driver, get along! I don't want to miss my train in Mercer.

Good-by, my dear. Take care of yourself."

Helena standing at the gate, followed the stage with her eyes until

the road turned at the foot of the hill. Then she went back to the

bench under the silver poplar and sat down. She said to herself that

she was glad he was gone. His easy indifference to the annoyance to

her of all these furtive years, seemed just for a moment unbearable.

He had not showed a glimmer of sympathy for her position; he had not

betrayed the slightest impatience at Frederick's astonishing health,

so contrary to every law of probability and justice; he had not even

understood how she felt at taking the friendship of the Old Chester

people on false pretences--oh, these stupid people! That dull, self-

satisfied, commonplace doctor's wife, so secure, so comfortable, in

her right to Old Chester friendships! Of course, it was a great thing

to be free from the narrowness and prejudice in which Old Chester was

absolutely hidebound. But Lloyd might at least have understood that in

spite of her freedom the years of delay had sometimes been a little

hard for her; that it was cruel that Frederick should live, and live,

and live, putting off the moment when she should be like--other

people; like that complacent Mrs. King, even; (oh, how she detested

the woman!) But Lloyd had shown no spark of sympathy or understanding;

instead he had made a horrid joke.... Suddenly her eyes, sweet and

kind and shallow as an animal's, clouded with pain, and she burst out

crying--but only for one convulsive moment. She could not cry out here

in the garden. She wished she could get into the house, but she was

sure that her eyes were red, and the servants might notice them. She

would have to wait a while. Then she shivered, for a sharp wind blew

from across the hills where in the hollows the snow still lingered in

grimy drifts, icy on the edges, and crumbling and settling and sinking

away with every day of pale sunshine. The faint fragrance of wind-

beaten daffodils reached her, and she saw two crocuses, long gold

bubbles, over in the grass. She put the back of her hand against her

cheek--it was hot still; she must wait a little longer. Her chilly

discomfort made her angry at Lloyd, as well as hurt.... It was nearly

half an hour before she felt sure that her eyes would not betray her

and she could go into the house.