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But a man cannot always decide for himself whether his own heart is

cold or warm. It now impresses me that, if I erred at all in regard to

Hollingsworth, Zenobia, and Priscilla, it was through too much

sympathy, rather than too little.

To escape the irksomeness of these meditations, I resumed my post at

the window. At first sight, there was nothing new to be noticed. The

general aspect of affairs was the same as yesterday, except that the

more decided inclemency of to-day had driven the sparrows to shelter,

and kept the cat within doors; whence, however, she soon emerged,

pursued by the cook, and with what looked like the better half of a

roast chicken in her mouth. The young man in the dress-coat was

invisible; the two children, in the story below, seemed to be romping

about the room, under the superintendence of a nursery-maid. The

damask curtains of the drawing-room, on the first floor, were now fully

displayed, festooned gracefully from top to bottom of the windows,

which extended from the ceiling to the carpet. A narrower window, at

the left of the drawing-room, gave light to what was probably a small

boudoir, within which I caught the faintest imaginable glimpse of a

girl's figure, in airy drapery. Her arm was in regular movement, as if

she were busy with her German worsted, or some other such pretty and

unprofitable handiwork.

While intent upon making out this girlish shape, I became sensible that

a figure had appeared at one of the windows of the drawing-room. There

was a presentiment in my mind; or perhaps my first glance, imperfect

and sidelong as it was, had sufficed to convey subtile information of

the truth. At any rate, it was with no positive surprise, but as if I

had all along expected the incident, that, directing my eyes

thitherward, I beheld--like a full-length picture, in the space between

the heavy festoons of the window curtains--no other than Zenobia! At

the same instant, my thoughts made sure of the identity of the figure

in the boudoir. It could only be Priscilla.

Zenobia was attired, not in the almost rustic costume which she had

heretofore worn, but in a fashionable morning-dress. There was,

nevertheless, one familiar point. She had, as usual, a flower in her

hair, brilliant and of a rare variety, else it had not been Zenobia.

After a brief pause at the window, she turned away, exemplifying, in

the few steps that removed her out of sight, that noble and beautiful

motion which characterized her as much as any other personal charm. Not

one woman in a thousand could move so admirably as Zenobia. Many women

can sit gracefully; some can stand gracefully; and a few, perhaps, can

assume a series of graceful positions. But natural movement is the

result and expression of the whole being, and cannot be well and nobly

performed unless responsive to something in the character. I often

used to think that music--light and airy, wild and passionate, or the

full harmony of stately marches, in accordance with her varying

mood--should have attended Zenobia's footsteps.