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"It is true," he said, rising and walking to and fro in the room, "I

am wearying you. Pardon me, I did not reflect how little my sorrow must

mean to you, and that I am intruding upon you something which can not

and ought not to interest you at all."

"You mistake my meaning. I am entirely at your service; only I regret

my inability to calm your distress. If my society and that of my friends

can give you any distraction, if, in short, you have need of me, no

matter in what way, I hope you will realize how much pleasure it will

give me to do anything for you."

"Pardon, pardon," said he; "sorrow sharpens the sensations. Let me stay

here for a few minutes longer, long enough to dry my eyes, so that the

idlers in the street may not look upon it as a curiosity to see a big

fellow like me crying. You have made me very happy by giving me this

book. I do not know how I can ever express my gratitude to you."

"By giving me a little of your friendship," said I, "and by telling me

the cause of your suffering. One feels better while telling what one

suffers."

"You are right. But to-day I have too much need of tears; I can not very

well talk. One day I will tell you the whole story, and you will see if

I have reason for regretting the poor girl. And now," he added, rubbing

his eyes for the last time, and looking at himself in the glass, "say

that you do not think me too absolutely idiotic, and allow me to come

back and see you another time."

He cast on me a gentle and amiable look. I was near embracing him.

As for him, his eyes again began to fill with tears; he saw that I

perceived it and turned away his head.

"Come," I said, "courage."

"Good-bye," he said.

And, making a desperate effort to restrain his tears, he rushed rather

than went out of the room.

I lifted the curtain of my window, and saw him get into the cabriolet

which awaited him at the door; but scarcely was he seated before he

burst into tears and hid his face in his pocket-handkerchief.