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"No--of course not--how should I see any one? I scarcely go

beyond the Hollow, and--I'm busy all day."

"A Eve--a Eve!" said a voice in my ear. "Eve tricked Adam,

didn't she?--a Eve!"

After this I sat for a long time without, moving, my mind harassed

with doubts and a hideous, morbid dread. Why had she avoided my

eye? Her own were pure and truthful, and could not lie! Why, why

had they avoided mine? If only she had looked at me!

Presently I rose and began to pace up and down the room.

"You are very restless, Peter!"

"Yes," said I; "yes, I fear I am--you must pardon me--"

"Why not read?"

"Indeed I had not thought of my books."

"Then read me something aloud, Peter."

"I will read you the sorrow of Achilles for the loss of Briseis,"

said I, and, going into the corner, I raised my hand to my shelf

of books--and stood there with hand upraised yet touching no book,

for a sudden spasm seemed to have me in its clutches, and once

again the trembling seized me, and the hammer had recommenced

its beat, beating upon my brain.

And, in a while, I turned from my books, and, crossing to the

door, leaned there with my back to her lest she should see my

face just then.

"I--I don't think I--will read--to-night!" said I at last.

"Very well, Peter, let us talk."

"Or talk," said I; "I--I think I'll go to bed. Pray," I went on

hurriedly, for I was conscious that she had raised her head and

was looking at me in some surprise, "pray excuse me--I'm very

tired." So, while she yet stared at me, I turned away, and,

mumbling a good night, went into my chamber, and closing the

door, leaned against it, for my mind was sick with dread, and

sorrow, and a great anguish; for now I knew that Charmian had

lied to me--my Virgil book had been moved from its usual place.