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Mrs Hopgood, too, had been the intimate friend of her husband, and

was the intimate friend of her daughters. She was now nearly sixty,

but still erect and graceful, and everybody could see that the

picture of a beautiful girl of one-and-twenty, which hung opposite

the fireplace, had once been her portrait. She had been brought up,

as thoroughly as a woman could be brought up, in those days, to be a

governess. The war prevented her education abroad, but her father,

who was a clergyman, not too rich, engaged a French emigrant lady to

live in his house to teach her French and other accomplishments. She

consequently spoke French perfectly, and she could also read and

speak Spanish fairly well, for the French lady had spent some years

in Spain. Mr Hopgood had never been particularly in earnest about

religion, but his wife was a believer, neither High Church nor Low

Church, but inclined towards a kind of quietism not uncommon in the

Church of England, even during its bad time, a reaction against the

formalism which generally prevailed. When she married, Mrs Hopgood

did not altogether follow her husband. She never separated herself

from her faith, and never would have confessed that she had separated

herself from her church. But although she knew that his creed

externally was not hers, her own was not sharply cut, and she

persuaded herself that, in substance, his and her belief were

identical. As she grew older her relationship to the Unseen became

more and more intimate, but she was less and less inclined to

criticise her husband's freedom, or to impose on the children a rule

which they would certainly have observed, but only for her sake.

Every now and then she felt a little lonely; when, for example, she

read one or two books which were particularly her own; when she

thought of her dead father and mother, and when she prayed her

solitary prayer.

Mr Hopgood took great pains never to disturb that

sacred moment. Indeed, he never for an instant permitted a finger to

be laid upon what she considered precious. He loved her because she

had the strength to be what she was when he first knew her and she

had so fascinated him. He would have been disappointed if the

mistress of his youth had become some other person, although the

change, in a sense, might have been development and progress. He did

really love her piety, too, for its own sake. It mixed something

with her behaviour to him and to the children which charmed him, and

he did not know from what other existing source anything comparable

to it could be supplied. Mrs Hopgood seldom went to church. The

church, to be sure, was horribly dead, but she did not give that as a

reason. She had, she said, an infirmity, a strange restlessness

which prevented her from sitting still for an hour. She often

pleaded this excuse, and her husband and daughters never, by word or

smile, gave her the least reason to suppose that they did not believe

her.