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"Come! Let us be calm, let us be judicial. The consequences

of our actions, here below, if hardly ever so good as we could

hope, are hardly ever so bad as we might fear. Let us regard

this matter in the light of that guiding principle. True, she

does n't dream that you are Wildmay. True, if you were

abruptly to say to her, 'I am Wildmay--you are the woman,' she

would be astonished--even, if you will, at first, more or less

taken aback, disconcerted. But indignant? Why? What is this

gulf that separates you from her? What are these conventional

barriers of which you make so much? She is a duchess, she is

the daughter of a lord, and she is rich. Well, all that is to

be regretted. But you are neither a plebeian nor a pauper

yourself. You are a man of good birth, you are a man of some

parts, and you have a decent income. It amounts to this--she

is a great lady, you are a small gentleman. In ordinary

circumstances, to be sure, so small a gentleman could not ask

so great a lady to become his wife. But here the circumstances

are not ordinary. Destiny has meddled in the business. Small

gentleman though you are, an unusual and subtle relation-ship

has been established between you and your great lady. She

herself says, 'Ordinary rules cannot apply--he ought to tell

her.' Very good: tell her. She will be astonished, but she

will see that there is no occasion for resentment. And though

the odds are, of course, a hundred to one that she will not

accept you, still she must treat you as an honourable suitor.

And whether she accepts you or rejects you, it is better to

tell her and to have it over, than to go on forever dangling

this way, like the poor cat in the adage. Tell her--put your

fate to the touch--hope nothing, fear nothing--and bow to the

event."

But even this temperate answer provoked its counter-answer.

"The odds are a hundred to one, a thousand to one, that she

will not accept you. And if you tell her, and she does not

accept you, she will not allow you to see her any more, you

will be exiled from her presence. And I thought, you did not

wish to be exiled from her presence, You would stake, then,

this great privilege, the privilege of seeing her, of knowing

her, upon a. chance that has a thousand to one against it.

You make light of the conventional barriers--but the principal

barrier of them all, you are forgetting. She is a Roman

Catholic, and a devout one. Marry a Protestant? She would as

soon think of marrying a Paynim Turk."