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"Ha! ha! what an idea! You are not serious?"

"As a judge."

"Psha! She does not miss me."

"Perhaps not," he answered gravely--"but for your own sake if not

for hers, it seems to me you should pursue a more domestic course."

"What mean you?"

"Yon leave your wife too much to herself!--nay--let me be frank--not

too much to herself, for there would be little danger in that, but

too much with that fellow Edgerton."

"What? You would not have me jealous, Kingsley?"

"No! Only prudent."

"You dislike Edgerton, Kingsley."

"I do! I frankly confess it. I think he wants manliness of character,

and such a man always lacks sincerity. But I do not speak of him.

I should utter the same opinion with respect to any other man, in

similar circumstances. A wife is a dependent creature--apt to be

weak!--If young, she is susceptible--equally susceptible to the

attentions of another and to the neglect of her husband. I do not

say that such is the case--with your wife. Far from it. I esteem

her very much as a remarkable woman. But women were intended to

be dependents. Most of them are governed by sensibilities rather

than by principles. Impulse leads them and misleads. The wife

finds herself neglected by the very man who, in particular, owes

her duty. She finds herself entertained, served, watched, tended

with sleepless solicitude, by another; one, not wanting either in

personal charms and accomplishments, and having similar tastes and

talents. What should be the result of this? Will she not become

indifferent where she finds indifference--devoted where she

finds devotion? A cunning fellow, like Edgerton, may, under these

circumstances, rob a man of his wife's affections. Mark me, I do

not say that he will do anything positively dishonorable, at least

in the world's acceptation of the term. I do not intimate--I would

not willingly believe--that she would submit to anything of the

sort. I speak of the affections, not of the virtues. There is shame

to the man in his wife's dishonor; but the misfortune of losing

her affections is neither more nor less than the suffering without

the shame. Look to it. I do not wish to prejudice your mind against

Edgerton. Far from it. I have forborne to speak hitherto because

I knew that my own mind was prejudiced against him. Even now I

say nothing against HIM. What I say has reference to your conduct

only.--I do not think Edgerton a bad man. I think him a weak

one. Weak as a woman--governed, like her, by impulse rather than

by principle--easily led away--incapable of resisting where his

affections are concerned--repenting soon, and sinning, in the same

way, as fast as he repents. He is weak, very weak--washy-weak--he

wants stamina, and, wanting that, wants principle!"

"Strange enough, if you should be right! How do you reconcile this

opinion with his refusal to lend you money to game upon? He was

governed in that by principle."