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"I would save him, madam, if you and he would let me," I exclaimed

with some indignation. "Your reference to my father's share in this

transaction does not affect me, as it is very evident that you are

not altogether acquainted with the true part which he had in it.

He had all the risk, all the loss, all the blame--and your husband

all the profit, all the importance. He lived poor, and died so;

without a knowledge of those profitable results to his brother

of which the latter has made his own avails by leaving my father's

memory to aspersion which he did not deserve, and his son to

destitution and reproach which he merited as little. My father's

memory is liable to no reproach when every creditor knows that he

died in a state of poverty, in which his only son has ever lived.

Neither he nor I ever shared any of the pleasant fruits, for which

we are yet to be made accountable."

"And whose fault was it that you didn't get your share I'm sure Mr.

Clifford made you as handsome an offer yesterday as any man could

desire. Didn't he offer you half? But I suppose nothing short of

the whole would satisfy so ambitious a person."

"Neither the half nor the whole will serve me, madam, in such

a business. My respect for your husband and his family would, of

itself, have been sufficient to prevent my acceptance of his offer."

"But there was Julia, too, Edward!" said Mr. Clifford, approaching

me with a most insinuating smile.

"It is not yet too late," said Mrs. Clifford, unbending a little.

"Take the offer of Mr. Clifford, Edward, and be one of us; and then

this ugly business--"

"Yes, my dear Edward, even now, though I have spoken with young

Perkins about the affair, and he tells me there's nothing so much

to be afraid of, yet, for the look of the thing, I'd rather that

you should be seen acting in the business. As it's so well known

that your father had nothing, and you nothing, it'll then be easy

for the people to believe that nothing was the gain of any of us;

and--and--"

"Young Perkins may think and say what he pleases, and you are

yourself capable of judging how much respect you may pay to his

opinion. Mine, however, remains unchanged. You will have to pay

this money--nay, this necessity will not come alone. The development

of all the particulars connected with the transaction will disgrace

you for ever, and drive you from the community. Even were I to

take part with you, I do not see that it would change the aspect of

affairs. So far from your sharing with me the reputation of being

profitless in the affair, the public would more naturally suspect

that I had shared with you--now, if not before--and the whole amount

involved would not seduce me to incur this imputation."