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Mr. Perkins, though deprived of his lien upon Mrs. Clifford, by

reason of his claim, did not in the least forego his intentions.

His complaints and threatenings necessarily ceased--his tone was

something lowered; but he possessed a hold upon this silly woman's

prejudices which was far superior to any which he might before have

had upon her fears. His hostility to me was grateful to the hate

which she also entertained, and which seemed to be more thoroughly

infixed in her after her downfall--which, as it has been seen, she

ascribed to me; chiefly because of my predictions that such would

be the case. In due proportion to her hate for me, was her desire

to baffle my wishes, even though it might be at the expense of her

own daughter's life. But a vain mother has no affections--none, at

least, worthy of the name, and none which she is not prepared to

discard at the first requisition of her dearer self. Her hate of

me was so extreme as to render her blind to everything besides--her

daughter's sickness, the counsel of the physician, the otherwise

obvious vulgarity and meanness of Perkins, and that gross injustice

which I had suffered at her hands from the beginning, and which, to

many minds, might have amply justified in me the hostile feelings

which she laid to my charge. In this blindness she precipitated

events, and by her cruelty justified extremities in self-defence.

The moment that Julia exhibited some slight improvement, she was

summoned to an interview with Perkins, and in this interview her

mother solemnly swore that she should marry him. The base-minded

suitor stood by in silence, beheld the loathing of the maiden,

heard her distinct refusal, yet clung to his victim, and permitted

the violence of the mother, without rebuke--that rebuke which the

true gentleman might have administered in such a case, and which,

to forbear, was the foulest shame--the rebuke of his own decided

refusal to participate in such a sacrifice. But he was not capable

of this; and Julia, stunned and terrified, was shocked to hear

Mrs. Clifford appoint the night of the following Thursday for the

forced nuptials.

"She will consent--she shall consent, Mr. Perkins," were the vehement

assurances of the mother, as the craven-spirited suitor prepared

to take his leave. "I know her better than you do, and she knows

me. Do you fear nothing, but bring Mr--" (the divine) "along with

you. We shall put an end to this folly."

"Oh, do not, do not, mother, if you would not drive me mad!" was

the exclamation of the destined victim, as she threw herself at the

feet of her unnatural parent. "You will kill me to wed this man!

I can not marry him--I can not love him. Why would you force this

matter upon me--why! why!"

"Why will you resist me, Julia? why will you provoke your mother

to this degree? You have only to consent willingly, and you know

how kind I am."