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"I know what you say is reasonable--is just; but, dear Edward, she

is my mother, and she is alone."

I yielded to her wishes. Could I else? My letter to her mother

concluded with a respectful entreaty that she would take apartments

in our dwelling, and a chair at our table, and lessen, to this

extent, the expenses of her own establishment.

"What!" exclaimed the frenzied woman to Julia's aunt, to whom the

charge of presenting the communication was committed--"what! eat

the bread of that insolent and ungrateful wretch? Never! never!"

She flung the epistle from her with disdain; and, to confess a truth,

though, on Julia's account, I should have wished a reconciliation,

I was by no means sorry, on my own, that such was her ultimatum. I

gave myself little further concern about this foolish person, and

was happy to see that in a short time my wife appeared to recover

from the sadness and stupor which the death of her father and the

temper of her mother had naturally induced. The truth is, she had,

for so long a period previously to her marriage, suffered from the

persecutions of the latter, and moaned over the shame and imbecility

of the former, that her present situation was one of great relief,

and, for a while, of comparative happiness.

We lived in a pleasant cottage in the suburbs. A broad and placid

lake spread out before our dwelling; and its tiny billows, under

the pressure of the sweet southwestern breezes, beat almost against

our very doors. Green and shady groves environed us on three sides,

and sheltered us from the intrusive gaze of the highway; and never

was a brighter collection of flowers and blossoms clustered around

any habitation of hope and happiness before. I rented the cottage

on moderate terms, and furnished it neatly, but simply, as became

my resources. All things considered, the prospect was fair and

promising before us. Julia had few toils, and ample leisure for

painting and music, for both of which she had considerable taste;

for the former art, in particular, she possessed no small talent.

Our city, indeed, seemed one peculiarly calculated for these arts.

Our sky was blue--deeply, beautifully blue; our climate mild and

delightful. Our people were singularly endowed with the genius

for graceful and felicitous performances. Music was an ordinary

attribute of the great mass; and in no community under the sun was

there such an overflow of talent in painting and sculpture. It was

the grand error of our wise heads to fancy that our city could be

made one of great trade; and, in a vain struggle to give it some

commercial superiority over its neighbor communities, the wealth

of the people was thrown away upon projects that yielded nothing;

and the arts were left neglected in a region which might have

been made--and might still be made--if not exclusively, at least

pre-eminently their own. The ordinary look of the women was beauty,

the ordinary accent was sweetness. The soft moonlight evenings were

rendered doubly harmonious by the tender tinkling of the wandering

guitar, or the tones of the plaintive flute; while, from every

third dwelling, rose the more stately but scarcely sweeter melodies

stricken by pliant fingers from the yielding soul of the divine

piano. The tastes even of the mechanic were refined by this language,

the purest In which passion ever speaks; and an ambition--the result

of the highest tone of aristocratic influence upon society--prompted

his desires to purposes and a position to which in other regions

he is not often permitted to aspire. These influences were assisted

by the peculiar location of our city--by its suburban freedom from all

closeness; its innumerable gardens, the appanage of every household;

its piazzas, verandahs, porches; its broad and minstrel-wooing rivers;

and the majestic and evergreen forests, which grew and gathered

around us on every hand. If ever there was a city intended by nature

more particularly than another for the abodes and the offices of

art, it was ours. It will become so yet: the mean, money-loving

soul of trade can not always keep it from its destinies. We may

never see it in our day; but so surely as we live, and as it shall

live, will it become an Athens in our land--a city of empire by

the sea, renowned for genius and taste--and the chosen retreat of

muses, younger and more vigorous, and not less lovely, than the

old!