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"Well, you are not in a hurry." I answered.

We were out as usual for a day's pleasure among the mountains,

and Hugh and I were resting on a sunny bank waiting for the

others to come up. We had distanced them.

"What do you think about it?" he said, suddenly drawing

himself up from the grass and looking in my face.

"Men do not rule their course by what women think," - I

answered.

"No, you are wrong; they do! Sometimes they do," - he said. "I

have no mother nor sister to counsel me; only Mrs. Randolph

bids me go home and be a soldier; but I would as lieve take

advice from you. What would you tell me to do - if I were your

brother?"

"I do not tell Ransom anything."

"He is under his mother's tutelage; but I am not. Tell me what

to do, Miss Randolph. I am sure your counsel would be good. Do

you wish me to go and fight the North, as your mother says I

ought?"

"I wish people would not fight at all," I said, with my heart

straitened.

"Of course; but here we are in it, or they are; and it is the

same thing. Don't you think they can get through it without

me? or do you say as your mother, - 'Every one go!' "

He looked at me more earnestly than was pleasant, and I was

greatly at a loss what to answer. It was wisest for me not to

commit myself to a course opposed to my mother's; and yet,

truth is wisest of all. I looked to see Ransom and Mr. De

Saussure, but they were not in sight.

"You are not speaking in jest," I said; "and I have no

business to speak in earnest."

"You never speak any other way," he rejoined. "Tell me your

mind. You are never violent; do you feel as Mrs. Randolph does

about it? Would you like me better if I went heart and soul

into the fray at home?"

"That would depend upon the-views and motives with which you

went into it."

"Well - if I did it for love of you?" he said smiling.

"I cannot imagine that anybody should do such a thing for love

of me. Nothing but the strongest and purest convictions of

duty can justify such a thing as fighting."

"I suppose I know what that means," he said somewhat gloomily.

"No," said I hastily, "I don't think you do."

"What does it mean, then?" he asked.

"Permit me to ask first, Are your convictions strong and

clear, that it is your duty to go home and enter the war for

the South?"

"That's a searching question," he said laughing. "To say yes,

would be to condemn myself at once. To say no, - what would

that do for me with Mrs. Randolph?"