Daisy In The Field - Page 95/231

I stood in much perplexity, not resolved what I ought to say

next. Papa took my hand.

"It is not much, to show yourself," he said kindly. "What is

the difficulty, Daisy?"

"You mean, show myself in a fine dress and in a fine assembly,

papa?"

"I don't care about the dress," he answered.

"Yes, but you do, Mr. Randolph," said my mother. "Daisy would

not wear a print, for instance, to the Grand Duke's ball. Your

complexion, Daisy, will take any sort of colour; but rubies

will look especially well on this skin, and pearls." She

touched my face caressingly as she spoke, pushing back the

hair from my temple and then bringing her hand down to take

hold of my chin. "Little fool!" said she laughing - "does it

dismay you?"

"Yes, mamma, - the thought of crossing your pleasure."

"You shall not do that. Good children always obey their

mothers, I am not going to have you settled down on a

plantation at home, east or west, without at least letting the

world see you first."

"Daisy does not want jewels," said my father. "She is too

young."

"One day she will," said mamma; "and an occasion might make it

proper, even now. I hope so; for I want to see the effect."

Mamma went away, with that; and I sat down again by papa's

side. Not to dream over the sunlight on the lake any more; I

was busy with cloudy realities. "Children, obey your parents

in the Lord." Oh, why did duty bid me go contrary to the

pleasure of mine! I would have so gladly pleased them to the

utmost limits of my power. Papa was watching me, though I did

not know it, and presently said very gently, "What is it, Daisy?"

"Papa, I want to please you and mamma so much!"

"And cannot you?"

"Not in this, papa."

"Why? Explain to me. I do not understand your position,

Daisy."

"Papa, I am a servant of Christ; and a servant is bound to do

his Master's will."

"But you are begging the question."

"If you will have patience, papa, I will try to tell you how

it is. You know the Lord said, 'If any man serve me, let him

follow me.' You know how He lived and what He lived for.

Should I be following in his footsteps, when I was dressing

and dancing and talking nonsense or nothings and getting so

tired that I could do nothing but sleep all the next day? And

papa, that is not all. It is so difficult, when one is dressed

to look well and others are dressed in like manner, or for the

same object, I mean, - it is very difficult not to wish to

look well, and to wish to look better than other people, and

to be glad if one does; and then comes the desire for

admiration, and a feeling of pride, and perhaps, emulation of

somebody else; and one comes home with one's head filled with

poor thoughts, and the next day one is fit for nothing. And is

that, following Christ? who went about doing good, who sought

not His own, who was separate from sinners. And He said to His

people, 'Ye are not of the world, even as I am not of the

world.' "