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He was wandering about the room, his hands in his pockets, his head

bent. When he stopped: "What am I to do with the girl, Audrey?"

"Get rid of her. That's easy."

"Not so easy as it sounds."

He told her of Dunbar and the photographs, of Rudolph Klein, and the

problem as he saw it.

"So there I am," he finished. "If I let her go, I lose one of the links

in Dunbar's chain. If I keep her?"

"Can't Natalie talk to him? Sometimes a woman can get to the bottom of

these things when a man can't. He might tell her all about it."

"Possibly. But I think it unlikely Natalie would tell me."

She leaned over and patted his hand impulsively.

"What devils we women are!" she said. "Now and then one of us gets what

she deserves. That's me. And now and then one of us get's something she

doesn't deserve. And that's Natalie. She's over-indulgent to Graham."

"He is all she has."

"She has you."

Something in her voice made him turn and look at her.

"That ought to be something, you know," she added. And laughed a little.

"Does Natalie pay his debts?"

"I rather think so."

But that was a subject he could not go on with.

"The fault is mine. I know my business better than I know how to handle

my life, or my family. I don't know why I trouble you with it all,

anyhow. You have enough." He hesitated. "That's not exactly true,

either. I do know. I'm relying on your woman's wit to help me. I'm wrong

somehow."

"About Graham?"

"I have a curious feeling that I am losing him. I can't ask for his

confidence. I can't, apparently, even deserve it. I see him, day after

day, with all the good stuff there is in him, working as little as he

can, drinking more than he should, out half the night, running into

debt--good heavens, Audrey, what can I do?"

She hesitated.

"Of course, you know one thing that would save him, Clay?"

"What?"

"Our getting into the war."

"I ought not to have to lose my boy in order to find him. But--we are

going to be in it."

He had risen and was standing, an elbow on the mantel-piece, looking

down at her.

"I suppose every man wonders, once in a while, how he'd conduct himself

in a crisis. When the Lusitania went down I dare say a good many fellows

wondered if they'd have been able to keep their coward bodies out of the

boats. I know I did. And I wonder about myself now. What can I do if we

go into the war? I couldn't do a forced march of more than five miles.

I can't drill, or whatever they call it. I can shoot clay pigeons, but I

don't believe I could hit a German coming at me with a bayonet at

twenty feet. I'd be pretty much of a total loss. Yet I'll want to do

something."