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February and March were peaceful months, on the surface. Washington was

taking stock quietly of national resources and watching for Germany's

next move. The winter impasse in Europe gave way to the first fighting

of spring, raids and sorties mostly, since the ground was still too

heavy for the advancement of artillery. On the high seas the reign of

terror was in full swing, and little tragic echoes of the world drama

began again to come by cable across the Atlantic. Some of Graham's

friends, like poor Chris, found the end of the path of glory. The tall

young Canadian Highlander died before Peronne in March. Denis Nolan's

nephew was killed in the Irish Fusileers.

One day Clayton came home to find a white-faced Buckham taking his

overcoat in the hall, and to learn that he had lost a young brother.

Clayton was uncomfortable at dinner that night. He wondered what

Buckham thought of them, sitting there around the opulent table, in that

luxurious room. Did he resent it? After dinner he asked him if he cared

to take a few days off, but the old butler shook his head.

"I'm glad to have my work to keep me busy, sir," he said. "And anyhow,

in England, it's considered best to go on, quite as though nothing had

happened. It's better for the troops, sir."

There was a new softness and tolerance in Clayton that early spring. He

had mellowed, somehow, a mellowing that had nothing to do with his new

prosperity. In past times he had wondered how he would stand financial

success if it ever came. He had felt fairly sure he could stand the

other thing. But success--Now he found that it only increased his sense

of responsibility. He was, outside of the war situation, as nearly happy

as he had been in years. Natalie's petulant moods, when they came,

no longer annoyed him. He was supported, had he only known it, by the

strong inner life he was living, a life that centered about his weekly

meetings with Audrey.

Audrey gave him courage to go on. He left their comradely hours together

better and stronger. All the week centered about that one hour, out

of seven days, when he stood on her hearth-rug, or lay back in a deep

chair, listening or talking--such talk as Natalie might have heard

without resentment.

Some times he felt that that one hour was all he wanted; it carried so

far, helped so greatly. He was so boyishly content in it. And then she

would make a gesture, or there would be, for a second, a deeper note

in her voice, and the mad instinct to catch her to him was almost

overwhelming.