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"In munition plants, I daresay. To be blown up!"

He winced. The thought of that night the year before, when the plant

went, still turned him sick.

"Don't buy too many things, my dear," he said, gently. "You know how

things are."

"I know it's your fault that they are as they are," she persisted. "Oh,

I know it was noble of you, and all that. The country's crazy about you.

But still I think it was silly. Every one else is making money out of

things, and you--a lot of thanks you'll get, when the war's over."

"I don't particularly want thanks."

Then the door-bell rang in the back of the house, and Buckham answered

it. He was conscious at once that Natalie stiffened, and that she was

watchful and a trifle pale. Buckham brought in a telegram on a tray.

"Give it to me, Buckham," Natalie said, in a strained voice. And held

out her hand for it. When she saw it was for Clayton, however, she

relaxed. As he tore it open, Clayton was thinking. Evidently Natalie

had been afraid of his seeing some message for her. Was it possible that

Natalie--He opened it. After what seemed a long time he looked up. Her

eyes were on him.

"Don't be alarmed, my dear," he said. "It is not very bad. But Graham

has been slightly wounded. Sit down," he said sharply, as he saw her

sway.

"You are lying to me," she said in a dreadful voice. "He's dead!"

"He is not dead, Natalie." He tried to put her into a chair, but she

resisted him fiercely.

"Let me alone. I want to see that telegram."

And, very reluctantly, at last he gave it to her. Graham was severely

wounded. It was from a man in his own department at Washington who had

just seen the official list. The nature of his wounding had not been

stated.

Natalie looked up from the telegram with a face like a painted mask.

"This is your doing," she said. "You wanted him to go. You sent him into

this. He will die, and you will have murdered him."

The thought came to him, in that hour of stress, that she was right.

Pitifully, damnably right. He had not wanted Graham to go, but he had

wanted him to want to go. A thousand thoughts flashed through his mind,

of Delight, sleeping somewhere quietly after her day's work at the camp;

of Graham himself, of that morning after the explosion, and his frank,

pitiful confession. And again of Graham, suffering, perhaps dying, and

with none of his own about him. And through it all was the feeling that

he must try to bring Natalie to reason, that it was incredible that she

should call him his own son's murderer.