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"What did you think?"

"If, some time or other, I could release a man to go and fight, it would

be the next best thing to giving myself. Not here, necessarily; I don't

believe we will ever go in. But in England, anywhere."

"You've released Chris."

"He released himself. And he's not fighting. He's driving an ambulance."

He waited, hoping she would go on. He was not curious, but he thought it

might be good for her to talk Chris and the trouble over with some

one. But she sat silent, and suddenly asked him if he cared for tea. He

refused.

"How's Natalie?"

"Very well."

"And the house?"

"Held up by cold weather now. It should be finished by the end of

April."

"Clay," she said, after a moment, "are you going to employ women in the

new munition works?"

"In certain departments, yes."

"I have a girl I want work for. She's not trained, of course."

"None of them are. We have to teach them. I can give you a card to the

employment department if you want it."

"Thanks."

There was a short silence. She sat looking at the fire, and he had a

chance to notice the change in her. She had visualized it herself. Her

long ear-rings were gone, and with them some of the insolence they had

seemed to accentuate. She was not rouged, and he had thought at first,

for that reason, that she looked ill. She was even differently dressed,

in something dark and girlish with a boyish white Eton collar.

"I wonder if you think I'm hiding, Clay," she said, finally.

"Well, what are you doing?" He smiled down at her from the hearth-rug.

"Paying my bills! That's not all the truth, either. I'll tell you, Clay.

I just got sick of it all. When Chris left I had a chance to burn my

bridges and I burned them. The same people, the same talk, the same

food, the same days filled with the same silly things that took all my

time and gave me nothing."

"How long had you been feeling like that?"

"I don't know. Ever since the war, I suppose. I just got to thinking--"

Her voice trailed off.

"I have some of Chris's Scotch, if you want a high-ball."

"Thanks, no. Audrey, do you hear from Chris?"

"Yes. He's in a dangerous place now, and sometimes at night--I suppose

I did force him, in a way. He was doing no good here, and I thought he

would find himself over there. But I didn't send him. He---Tell me about

making shells."