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This isn't Jerusha Abbott, the future great author, writing to you.

It's just Judy--a girl.

9th June Mr. John Smith, SIR: Yours of the 7th inst. at hand. In compliance with the

instructions received through your secretary, I leave on Friday next to

spend the summer at Lock Willow Farm.

I hope always to remain,

(Miss) Jerusha Abbott

LOCK WILLOW FARM,

3rd August

Dear Daddy-Long-Legs,

It has been nearly two months since I wrote, which wasn't nice of me, I

know, but I haven't loved you much this summer--you see I'm being frank!

You can't imagine how disappointed I was at having to give up the

McBrides' camp. Of course I know that you're my guardian, and that I

have to regard your wishes in all matters, but I couldn't see any

REASON. It was so distinctly the best thing that could have happened

to me. If I had been Daddy, and you had been Judy, I should have said,

'Bless yo my child, run along and have a good time; see lots of new

people and learn lots of new things; live out of doors, and get strong

and well and rested for a year of hard work.' But not at all! Just a curt line from your secretary ordering me to

Lock Willow.

It's the impersonality of your commands that hurts my feelings. It

seems as though, if you felt the tiniest little bit for me the way I

feel for you, you'd sometimes send me a message that you'd written with

your own hand, instead of those beastly typewritten secretary's notes.

If there were the slightest hint that you cared, I'd do anything on

earth to please you.

I know that I was to write nice, long, detailed letters without ever

expecting any answer. You're living up to your side of the

bargain--I'm being educated--and I suppose you're thinking I'm not

living up to mine!

But, Daddy, it is a hard bargain. It is, really. I'm so awfully

lonely. You are the only person I have to care for, and you are so

shadowy. You're just an imaginary man that I've made up--and probably

the real YOU isn't a bit like my imaginary YOU. But you did once, when

I was ill in the infirmary, send me a message, and now, when I am

feeling awfully forgotten, I get out your card and read it over.

I don't think I am telling you at all what I started to say, which was

this: Although my feelings are still hurt, for it is very humiliating to be

picked up and moved about by an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable,

omnipotent, invisible Providence, still, when a man has been as kind

and generous and thoughtful as you have heretofore been towards me, I

suppose he has a right to be an arbitrary, peremptory, unreasonable,

invisible Providence if he chooses, and so--I'll forgive you and be

cheerful again. But I still don't enjoy getting Sallie's letters about

the good times they are having in camp!