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The maid recoiled--she thought her mistress had suddenly gone mad.

"Phoebe," said the countess eagerly, "what is the hour?"

"Nearly eleven, my lady."

"Has it cleared off?"

"No, my lady; it has come on to rain hard; it is pouring."

The countess went to the windows of her room, but they were too closely

shut and warmly curtained to give her any information as to the state of

the weather without. Then she hurried impatiently into the passage where

the one end window remained with its shutters still unclosed, and she

looked out. The rain was lashing the glass with fury. She turned away

and sought her own room again--complaining: "Oh, I can never go to-night! It is too late and too stormy! Mrs.

Brudenell would think me crazy, and the woman at the hut would never let

me have my son. Yet, oh! what would I not give to have him on my bosom

to-night," said Berenice, pacing feverishly about the room.

"My lady," said the maid uneasily, "I don't think you are well at all

this evening. Won't you let me give you some salvolatile?"

"No, I don't want any!" replied the countess, without stopping in her

restless walk.

"But, my lady, indeed you are not well!" persisted the affectionate

creature.

"No, I am not well, Phoebe! My heart is sore, sore, Phoebe! But

that child would be a balm to it! If I could press my son to my bosom,

Phoebe, he would draw out all the fire and pain!"

"But, my lady, he is not your son!" said the maid, with tears of alarm

starting in her eyes.

"He is, girl! Now that his mother is dead he is mine! Who has a better

right to him than I, I wonder? His mother is gone! his father--" Here

the countess suddenly recollected herself, and as she looked into her

maid's astonished face she felt how far apart were the ideas of the

Jewish matron and the Christian maiden. She controlled her emotion, took

her seat, and said: "Don't be alarmed, Phoebe. I am only a little nervous to-night, my

girl. And I want something more satisfactory than a little dog to pet."

"I don't think, my lady, you could get anything in the world more

grateful, or more faithful, or more easy to manage, than a little dog.

Certainly not a baby. Babies is awful, my lady. They aint got a bit of

gratitude or faithfulness in them; and after you have toted them about

all day, you may tote them about all night. And then they are bawling

from the first day of January until the thirty-first day of December.

Take my advice, my lady, and stick to the little dogs, and let babies

alone, if you love your peace."