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That important period in his life when character is influenced and

formed by its first contact with the world and with men, was not spent

by Vladimir Sanine at home, with his parents. There had been none to

guard or guide him; and his soul developed in perfect freedom and

independence, just as a tree in the field.

He had been away from home for many years, and, when he returned, his

mother and his sister Lida scarcely recognized him. His features,

voice, and manner had changed but little, yet something strange and

new, and riper in his whole personality gave a light to his countenance

and endowed it with an altered expression. It was in the evening that

he came home, entering the room as quietly as if he had only left it

five minutes before. As he stood there, tall, fair, and broad-

shouldered, his calm face with its slightly mocking expression at the

corners of the mouth showed not a sign of fatigue or of emotion, and

the boisterous greeting of his mother and sister subsided of itself.

While he was eating, and drinking tea, his sister, sitting opposite,

gazed steadfastly at him. She was in love with him, as most romantic

girls usually are with their absent brother. Lida had always imagined

Vladimir to be an extraordinary person, as strange as any to be found

in books. She pictured his life as one of tragic conflict, sad and

lonely as that of some great, uncomprehended soul.

"Why do you look at me like that?" asked Sanine, smiling.

This quiet smile and searching glance formed his usual expression, but,

strange to say, they did not please Lida. To her, they seemed self-

complacent, revealing nought of spiritual suffering and strife. She

looked away and was silent. Then, mechanically, she kept turning over

the pages of a book.

When the meal was at an end, Sanine's mother patted his head

affectionately, and said: "Now, tell us all about your life, and what you did there."

"What I did?" said Sanine, laughing. "Well, I ate, and drank, and

slept; and sometimes I worked; and sometimes I did nothing!"

It seemed at first as if he were unwilling to speak of himself, but

when his mother questioned him about this or that, he appeared pleased

to narrate his experiences. Yet, for some reason or other, one felt

that he was wholly indifferent as to the impression produced by his

tales. His manner, kindly and courteous though it was in no way

suggested that intimacy which only exists among members of a family.

Such kindliness and courtesy seemed to come naturally from him as the

light from a lamp which shines with equal radiance on all objects.